Locked Soul

thunder_balls

I wrote this song about my friend mostly...he's just like, really really really over-religious. Kinda' sad. He won't be able to have a friend like me, since my birth-right religion is Catholic, and that's his church's worst enemy. I'm not a firm Catholic believer at all, and I don't want to be....but that's what my mom's trying to get me into. No offense to any religious people out there though. This is just about a guy I know, and not religion.


It's sadism, but you can't see it
it's mad, but i don't mean it
do you see this tube?
I don't care if it's somethin you like
It's down your throat
enjoy your ride...

What you think of me,
of you,
idols..
skip around,
we won't have him
everything promotes satanism

Yes even what you believe
what you're convinced is what god sees
rests on your knees..

You will never come up,
only the wrong touch
will bring enough,
sense in your mind
to keep you from blowing down
into the black ground

Hail to your master
never become faster
for it is wrong
never listen to a black song

Hail to the god again
which god can never end
will he end it for me soon
soon, at a black on white noon

What I've chosen is right
I think my choice is white
What happy is I think I know.
I am forever a lost soul
I will never see you again
You cannot be my friend
I am not allowed to go
This way, since I'm a locked soul...

You're doomed for life
so you can live another
one with more strife
and you don't know, and let it bother

why put yourself through it
if you will already experience death
over and over again
your version of hell is heaven...

You believe whatever you hear
what you don't see my dear
is that 1,000 times every year
who taught you does it to..me.

controlled by one above
never let him take you over
you will not have enough
end up a paper stoner

stand for him, if he will let you
stand for grands if youre allowed to
you can't do good or it's wrong
if you can't see what's to dark
but has a hidden part

its talent we can't have or be
do you now think he's by any mean?
to me
and you.

I will bleed, i will read, i will knead
i will seed, i will creed, i will succeed
wether you are there with me or not
i will be who i wanna be
and you and your lines cannot stop me

I just hope you're along,
to play this song
i hope you know it's not wrong
it's only wrong to sky-high's law

What I've chosen is right
I think my choice is white
What happy is I think I know.
I am forever a lost soul
I will never see you again
You cannot be my friend
I am not allowed to go
This way, since I'm a locked soul...

Being Enlightened

I feel sorry for your freind.

You know what I believe in. I believe in love. Love for people, animals, plants, the planet. Love is all you need.

Any religion that judges and separates is doomed to fail.

twin2

I'm sorry you lost a friend. Differences of opinion are part of what makes the world go round. My mother is Catholic, my dad is Methodist. Neither goes to church and their marrage is not even recognized by the Catholic church because she didn't marry into her religion. My personal beliefs come from my own life experiences and personal search for "the truth" and have little to do with what any church or book has taught me. My husband doesn't even believe in Hell and he says that if there is one, we are living in it now (the eternal optimist that he is). He believes in a higher power as do I-one that represents love. My mind is open to others beliefs but I won't ever agree with something that hurts another. Everyone should make up their own mind what they think based on the facts and what they believe inside to be right, not what they are told by ANYONE. Fanatics are just that...fanatics, which ever way they are going. I'm not sure I agree with the "locked soul" thing either. Everyone has their own mind and choice to make and that includes the freedom to change it.

"Any religion that judges and separates is doomed to fail" I also agree with BE on this one.

thunder_balls

Well, I don't really mean the whole "Locked Soul" thing. I just use the title, since my friend has been pretty much brainwashed to hate many things. Like John Lennon after his comment, or me because I'm Catholic. But, I very much agree with you Twin2, that people should make their own religion up, and do have the right to choose what they want. Hell, I do pretty much. I do believe with his church, that it should be held on Saturday, since the Romans changed it to Sunday so it could be held with their other religion. But some of the other things that he's told me, like I'm going to hell because I worship "the beast (Catholic church)". I don't mind his religion. He can be whatever he wants for all I care. I just wish it wouldn't affect our relationship. Oh well. My beliefs personally aren't really Catholic though. I just believe in all kinds of things. I'm actually almost Pagan...

twin2

thunder_balls wrote:

Well, I don't really mean the whole "Locked Soul" thing. I just use the title, since my friend has been pretty much brainwashed to hate many things. Like John Lennon after his comment, or me because I'm Catholic. But, I very much agree with you Twin2, that people should make their own religion up, and do have the right to choose what they want. Hell, I do pretty much. I do believe with his church, that it should be held on Saturday, since the Romans changed it to Sunday so it could be held with their other religion. But some of the other things that he's told me, like I'm going to hell because I worship "the beast (Catholic church)". I don't mind his religion. He can be whatever he wants for all I care. I just wish it wouldn't affect our relationship. Oh well. My beliefs personally aren't really Catholic though. I just believe in all kinds of things. I'm actually almost Pagan...

I can understand where you are coming from. We are all just people, so alike in some ways, but so different in others. I personally don't agree with some of the things the Catholics do, but I lean more towards a christianly way in that I believe in love, peace, and hope. I wouldn't say I made up my own religion but I trust my instincts and conscience and I do pray to a higher power. I think you need to pick and choose who you trust. That is a good guide to follow.

pacifier

twin2 wrote:

My husband doesn't even believe in Hell and he says that if there is one, we are living in it now (the eternal optimist that he is).

I don't pretend to know such things, but I agree with your husband. We are made in god's image, right? And who among us would ever condemn our child to hell, even if they did things to hurt us, even if they did horrible things we didn't agree with or understand? And if we as humans couldn't wish our children to hell, then how could God? Plus what we would wish is to put them in an environment where they could learn from there mistakes, a place like, i don't no, Earth, for instance. So yeah, i tend to agree with your hubby there.

twin2

pacifier wrote:

I don't pretend to know such things, but I agree with your husband. We are made in god's image, right? And who among us would ever condemn our child to hell, even if they did things to hurt us, even if they did horrible things we didn't agree with or understand? And if we as humans couldn't wish our children to hell, then how could God? Plus what we would wish is to put them in an environment where they could learn from there mistakes, a place like, i don't no, Earth, for instance. So yeah, i tend to agree with your hubby there.

As I tell him, you have a good point there. It's about unconditional love.

monkay

Being Enlightened wrote:

I feel sorry for your freind.

You know what I believe in. I believe in love. Love for people, animals, plants, the planet. Love is all you need.

Any religion that judges and separates is doomed to fail.

Well put!! This is exactly how i feel!!
To allow yourself to love is the most incredible gift you could ever allow yourself to have!

lovin kind

makes me worry for everyone
i wonder sometimes if i look into the eyes of my love
i just wonder if history was bad for them
and maybe i overlooked therye meaning to me

now most important is who made electricity
and for this and many books and paintings and souls and brothers and sisters
i have no doubts

its just that my mom and dad i worry for them

monkay

Everbody worries about people close to them!! If you didn't worry then thats a problem. You just need to rationalise your worrying thoughts!! You also need to tell people how you feel. It feels good to be told that somone loves you but it feels better when someone truly appreciates the love you have for them!

The first time I really told my mum how much i appreciated everything she has done for me in the past and how much I loved her, I saw a tear in her eye and it made me melt! my whole world changed instantly. It was weird! like unlocking a secret to life!! You know. Embrace all good feelings you have for people and life in general!! Its a good buzz!! Any bad feelings let them go!! There not worth your energy!!

Take Care!!

Ms. Haiku

Have you done this spoken word? I can visualize someone doing this spoken word, and having fun with it. I read your intro, but as I was reading the words, I read them more for the song itself or the poem, or whatever it is. I can feel the dips and dives as I read it.

thunder_balls

twin2 wrote:

I can understand where you are coming from. We are all just people, so alike in some ways, but so different in others. I personally don't agree with some of the things the Catholics do, but I lean more towards a christianly way in that I believe in love, peace, and hope. I wouldn't say I made up my own religion but I trust my instincts and conscience and I do pray to a higher power. I think you need to pick and choose who you trust. That is a good guide to follow.

I agree with every thing you've said there. You're a lot like me...well when it comes to this anyways. The truth is, the Catholic church is telling people not to be gay..like people have something against gay people. And..well, you won't believe some of the evil things the Catholic church has done. That's why I don't like being Catholic. But, as soon as my mom can't control me, I dont have to follow that...But, I mean, It's so stupid. I don't get it...if god doesn't want people to be gay..then don't make them born gay. God..it's not their fault. Although, most Christians feel that way, the Catholic church probably says it the most. So sad. That's just one way religion affects people's lives today. But yeah, I agree with what you and another person before me said about "Love is all ya' need"...

thunder_balls

Bibliobella wrote:

Have you done this spoken word? I can visualize someone doing this spoken word, and having fun with it. I read your intro, but as I was reading the words, I read them more for the song itself or the poem, or whatever it is. I can feel the dips and dives as I read it.

I've never actually tried anything in spoken word. In fact I haven't read this poem i've written in a month. I just posted it up here to post it mostly.

twin2

thunder_balls wrote:

I agree with every thing you've said there. You're a lot like me...well when it comes to this anyways. The truth is, the Catholic church is telling people not to be gay..like people have something against gay people. And..well, you won't believe some of the evil things the Catholic church has done. That's why I don't like being Catholic. But, as soon as my mom can't control me, I dont have to follow that...But, I mean, It's so stupid. I don't get it...if god doesn't want people to be gay..then don't make them born gay. God..it's not their fault. Although, most Christians feel that way, the Catholic church probably says it the most. So sad. That's just one way religion affects people's lives today. But yeah, I agree with what you and another person before me said about "Love is all ya' need"...

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thunder_balls

twin2 wrote:

Well, it's been a while since I went to church but I never remember the Christian churches I've been to being against gay people. I don't believe in telling some guy in a box what I've done wrong and I don't worship statues or pray to anything but the God that I believe in. I have been friends with gay people. I don't see anything wrong with it. I don't judge people like that...it's not my place to. In my eyes, we are all the same. I have skeletons in my closet just like anyone else. I just don't choose to live in a self pity state of mind-it's no good for me or anyone else around me. I think if you can love yourself you open the doors to loving everyone else. I think with religion it is sad because people have been led astray by liars and there are good people in all religions and all walks of life. I believe we are here to help each other not to hurt each other. Love makes the world go round in the right direction. Understanding and being open minded is important.

Man..this is all so true..

Ali

I'd hate to break it to you..but this country's laws are based upon religion..
We're all fucked and have been doing the "Right" thing maybe,huh?;)

thunder_balls

Ali wrote:

I'd hate to break it to you..but this country's laws are based upon religion..
We're all fucked and have been doing the "Right" thing maybe,huh?;)

Haha.."One nation, under God.."

twin2

I'm sorry if I have offended anyone with anything I've said. It is not my intention. I still believe in a higher power of love. I have a lot of unanswered questions. I only know some things I agree with and some I don't but it's everyones personal choice to make. I'm no better than anyone else and just because I don't understand some things doesn't mean I don't try to. I'm learning every day.

thunder_balls

twin2 wrote:

I'm sorry if I have offended anyone with anything I've said. It is not my intention. I still believe in a higher power of love. I have a lot of unanswered questions. I only know some things I agree with and some I don't but it's everyones personal choice to make. I'm no better than anyone else and just because I don't understand some things doesn't mean I don't try to. I'm learning every day.

Well, I don't think you've offended anyone. It's all opinion. I really hope I haven't offended anyone with my song though...as I said earlier, this isn't meant to. But still, I hope this doesn't piss anyone off.

depopulationINC

Ali wrote:

I'd hate to break it to you..but this country's laws are based upon religion..
We're all fucked and have been doing the "Right" thing maybe,huh?;)

dang dang .

twin1

For some, their God is who gets them through the day. Call it a crutch or what you will. I can just say from personal experience, my beliefs in God helped me get through extremely painfull emotional and physical distress without drugs, alcohol, or killing myself. He gives me pure inner peace that no one else can give. I don't go to church and I don't believe in all of the ritual stuff. I think you kinda miss the point putting all the bells and whistles on it. If it's fake, what's the point? walk the walk...