My ugly side!

bluejourneyman

Why do people lie and start rumors, is it because the truth is to boring? Maybe, it is to justify their fucked up anger. I watch people try to cross my boundaries; they are funny little ants, trying to crawl around my planted foot. They blindly bump into my soul until they find an opening to go around. Do they not realize that I could crush them at any moment? My loving, kindness is the only thing that saves their pitiful little lives. Working for their master, shitting in the dirt and rebuilding the house that I destroyed, the ants unknowingly live, not realizing that on day the sun will be blocked out once again. Some other foot will rise up above, slamming down, and crush their little fucking lives all over the place.

catefrances

have you ever watched the ants going about their business and put something in their path just to watch them freak out? i have. they get lost and they don't know what to do. it amuses me to fuck with them that way. it is as if they need to be told what to do and how to do it. me? i don't need to be told anything. i watch everything. i know what it is that messes things up. i steer clear of it. though i choose not to step on their little ant bodies, i know it won't be too long until somebody else does. they will writhe in broken back agony while others run around in all directions not knowing what it is they are suppose to do. i will watch and i will laugh. i choose not to live amongst them in their ants' nest. i am my own creator and i am my own saviour. i will gather what i need to survive. and it will not include those who are weak. how about you? what is it that you will choose to do?

weed

Why do people lie and start rumors?

THEY want to make you look bad.
THEY want to look innocent & good and like THEY always try to do the right thing.
THEY don't like you.
THEY don't want anyone else to like you.

Is it because the truth is too boring?

THEY are boring.
THEY have a boring life.
THEY have nothing better to do.

Is it to justify their fucked up anger?

THEY are miserable.
It makes THEM feel better.
It brings THEM pleasure.


It happens to me everyday.
A certain cocksucker... makes his rounds through town... every morning and every evening. (restaurants, grocery stores, gas stations, etc.) Talks about me to two different shifts of employees (sometimes for hours) and all the people comming in & out get to hear it too. He stands at the counter spilling shit from his mouth... she this and she that. I don't care because these people don't really know me and if they really knew the dickhead telling this crap they would kick their own ass for listening. This is a really small town and shit spreads fast. As it spreads - - it smells worse than it did when it was first shit out. The shitter and the spreaders... what would the world be like without them?

you could:
Stomp on them with both feet, shit on THEM... and when THEY are good & sick and can't run away - - set THEM on fire.

or you could:
Smile and do nothing. The silent treatment works better than anything else. If the shitter knows that they are getting to you they will suddenly develop diarrhea which spreads even easier.
Things will turn around. Lies are lies and the truth will come out.
Sooner or later ~ the shitter ~ shits himself to death and the smell from the mess that the spreaders made ~ starts to die down. Somehow a big bucket of Lysol will pour down on the whole thing, clean it up and you didn't have to do a thing.

madjack

Why do some people pretend that you talk about them? Do they think they are actually that important to you or anyone else. Is becuse that some people have no life and are jealous that a person can have friends and a life without them. Does she not realize I'm over her, I have a life witout her now. She says she loves someone else, why doesn't she go with him and quit accusing me of everything. Baby at one time you were something to me, but your lies and accusations got old, nobody talks about your paranoid ass no one cares. Get a life and let me live mine without you running your big whinning mouth all the time, we are over it is over. If I have girlfriends at all these places then fuckin leave me alone. You've been threatening me with your little made up shit for years, aren't you smart enough to realize that I know your nothing but a liar. Please get over it married this great dude you love and leave me out of your life please. I will see my son and you can't stop me no matter how much you try to.

madjack

Really I should have not said all of that because I truely believe that my 2nd wife has PPD, she thinks people follow her, she thinks I talk about her all the time, she thinks I have businesses that I don't, she has many unreal delusions. It was really hard to see our love die, but if you ever experienced this disorder it is hard to deal with. I have trouble relating to the world myself I suffered PTSD after the 1st Gulf War, I had to go through counseling for months. I can deal but its a day by day thing. If you read about PPD there is no cure and the person suffering from it will rarely seek help becuse they think they are really seeing things right. My former wife is a beautiful woman who has a beautiful heart, I hope she can get over this and live a wonderful life. I don't believe I will ever love another as I did her at one time. If her family loves her they will get her some help because she is to beautiful of a person to live like this.

My apologies to all and especially to you weed.

bluejourneyman

connecting with others is better. Thanks for the circle:)