despise

depopulationINC

I see I saw I pray
I saw myself today
This is not the man
Envisioned in my plan
I quiver in the pain
The rain to wash away
Half of what I need
My friend I am in need
Praying for the chance
Opportunity in plea
Maggot on the floor
Half a man
Not more
Why do I persist
I am perspired
Why do I exist
I fell expired
All that I do know
Got to get and go
Bother to even try
The very question
I ask why
I should not be here
I am
My only fear
Not what I foresaw
Regrets
They consume us all
Much to my shagrim
The thoughts
I have within
What I need to feel
Will never be for real
What I dream to see
I will never be
What I see inside
Can no longer hide
Searching
Soul within
No longer
Have my pride
Searched my self so long
Why bother carry on
All that I can see
Is the man that I despise