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depopulationINCdepopulationINC Posts: 2,074
edited December 2005 in Poetry, Prose, Music & Art
Feel the sadness sinking in
Seems it doesn’t matter what you say
Living by no ones rules
Seems I can’t live my life properly
Does it matter what they say
I’ve never cared about it anyways
Does it matter what they say
I’ve never cared for them anyways

Sitting here with open eyes
Turn my back to the betrayed
Welcomed with such open arms
This thrown they built
Never felt so good anyways

Give up those premonitions
Seems they only lead you astray
Listen to your head and not you gut
The closest hurt the most when they betray
Close your ears and open eyes
If you desire clarity
No point in stating what’s on your mind
Those good times weren’t meant to be here to stay

Living life as best I can see
Living now it’s all for me
Living life as best I can see
I turn my back on you today
I slam doors shut
Condemn those gleeful ways

Feel the sadness sinking in
Seems it doesn’t matter what you say
Living by no ones rules
Seems I can’t live my life properly
Does it matter what they say
I’ve never cared about it anyways
Does it matter what they say
I’ve never cared for them anyways

Speak your mind
You know that you are right
Tell me now
Show your dislike
Piss and moan
I like your complaints
Say what you want
As I walk away
The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!

And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
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  • twin1twin1 Posts: 902
    This is sad and hopeless sounding. Like someone who has withdrawn due to hurt. Is it about someone who is supposed to be a friend but they turn out not to be after all? It made me think of the song by Edie Brickell & the New Bohemians, I think it is called "circle". I can't remember, haven't heard it in awhile. Good read but very sad.
    Our love must not be just words, but True Love, which shows itself in action,
    No one needs a smile more than someone who fails to give one,
    After you die...you know how to LIVE!
  • depopulationINCdepopulationINC Posts: 2,074
    twin1 wrote:
    This is sad and hopeless sounding. Like someone who has withdrawn due to hurt. Is it about someone who is supposed to be a friend but they turn out not to be after all? It made me think of the song by Edie Brickell & the New Bohemians, I think it is called "circle". I can't remember, haven't heard it in awhile. Good read but very sad.

    perhaps it is about me
    The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!

    And I won't make the same mistakes
    (Because I know)
    Because I know how much time that wastes
    (And function)
    Function is the key
  • bigbillbigbill Posts: 42
    depopulationINC wrote:
    perhaps it is about me
    i think we need pity patrol here.
  • twin1twin1 Posts: 902
    bigbill wrote:
    i think we need pity patrol here.

    At least some people look in the mirror and try to figure things out and actually have a heart...I PRAY FOR YOU DAILY BIGBILL and hope that you can do that one day as well...peace :)
    Our love must not be just words, but True Love, which shows itself in action,
    No one needs a smile more than someone who fails to give one,
    After you die...you know how to LIVE!
  • bigbillbigbill Posts: 42
    twin1 wrote:
    At least some people look in the mirror and try to figure things out and actually have a heart...I PRAY FOR YOU DAILY BIGBILL and hope that you can do that one day as well...peace :)
    i was talking to depop but since you feel the need to comment or get involved. now you open the door for me. you are one of the biggest phonies out there. don't pray for me. you should pray for yourself. you're the one believes in the bible but don't live it. i know i'm a asshole. what would you call yourself and be honest. if you can't i can help you with that
  • twin1twin1 Posts: 902
    bigbill wrote:
    i was talking to depop but since you feel the need to comment or get involved. now you open the door for me. you are one of the biggest phonies out there. don't pray for me. you should pray for yourself. you're the one believes in the bible but don't live it. i know i'm a asshole. what would you call yourself and be honest. if you can't i can help you with that

    I do pray for myself as well and I do try to live by what it teaches. I am not God nor have I ever said that I am. I know my faults and things I have done wrong and am trying to learn and grow from them to be a better person. I can not change things I have done in the past. I will continue to pray for you and myself. I am a sinner just like anyone else but I try not to be. I don't just accept that and am o.k. with it, I feel guilty if I do wrong. What would I call myself - a humble sinner who is trying to do the right thing with their life going forward.
    Our love must not be just words, but True Love, which shows itself in action,
    No one needs a smile more than someone who fails to give one,
    After you die...you know how to LIVE!
  • bigbillbigbill Posts: 42
    twin1 wrote:
    I do pray for myself as well and I do try to live by what it teaches. I am not God nor have I ever said that I am. I know my faults and things I have done wrong and am trying to learn and grow from them to be a better person. I can not change things I have done in the past. I will continue to pray for you and myself. I am a sinner just like anyone else but I try not to be. I don't just accept that and am o.k. with it, I feel guilty if I do wrong. What would I call myself - a humble sinner who is trying to do the right thing with their life going forward.
    like i said don't pray for me i'm no sinner. you can only sin if you believe. but i do make mistakes but i'm not sorry for being human. i am what i am.
  • PearlsGirlPearlsGirl Posts: 257
    depopulationINC wrote:
    Feel the sadness sinking in
    Seems it doesn’t matter what you say
    Living by no ones rules
    Seems I can’t live my life properly
    Does it matter what they say
    I’ve never cared about it anyways
    Does it matter what they say
    I’ve never cared for them anyways

    Sitting here with open eyes
    Turn my back to the betrayed
    Welcomed with such open arms
    This thrown they built
    Never felt so good anyways

    Give up those premonitions
    Seems they only lead you astray
    Listen to your head and not you gut
    The closest hurt the most when they betray
    Close your ears and open eyes
    If you desire clarity
    No point in stating what’s on your mind
    Those good times weren’t meant to be here to stay

    Living life as best I can see
    Living now it’s all for me
    Living life as best I can see
    I turn my back on you today
    I slam doors shut
    Condemn those gleeful ways

    Feel the sadness sinking in
    Seems it doesn’t matter what you say
    Living by no ones rules
    Seems I can’t live my life properly
    Does it matter what they say
    I’ve never cared about it anyways
    Does it matter what they say
    I’ve never cared for them anyways

    Speak your mind
    You know that you are right
    Tell me now
    Show your dislike
    Piss and moan
    I like your complaints
    Say what you want
    As I walk away

    I know how you are feeling, I feel the same way right now. It hurts, and all I want is for all of this to go away and for things to go back to normal.
    Thank you for your poem, it's beautiful.
    I miss my poems.... I haven't gotten one in months.... And that's all I really want, is just one, one last one, for all the memories.
    Don't let the world bring you down, not everyone here is that fucked up and cold. Remember why you came and while you're alive, experience the warmth before you grow old.

    Best two days of my life: Oasis at MSG and Pearl Jam at the Gorge.
  • depopulationINCdepopulationINC Posts: 2,074
    PearlsGirl wrote:
    I know how you are feeling, I feel the same way right now. It hurts, and all I want is for all of this to go away and for things to go back to normal.
    Thank you for your poem, it's beautiful.
    I miss my poems.... I haven't gotten one in months.... And that's all I really want, is just one, one last one, for all the memories.

    hope you get one soon....in the mean time, I am glad you enjoyed this one.

    this poem was about turning your back on friends for your own good. You may not trully want to, but really want the personal gain that can come with it sometimes.
    The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!

    And I won't make the same mistakes
    (Because I know)
    Because I know how much time that wastes
    (And function)
    Function is the key
  • twin1twin1 Posts: 902
    depopulationINC wrote:
    this poem was about turning your back on friends for your own good. You may not trully want to, but really want the personal gain that can come with it sometimes.

    That is sad depop. I hate loosing friends, especially if I care about them alot. I had to do that with my best friend when I was younger, I hated hurting her but knew I was tired of getting in trouble and that I was heading down the wrong road. Sometimes I wish I could go back though and tell her what was on my mind and what I saw so she would have understood instead of leaving her hanging. It may have saved our friendship. If I were just more honest about it. It depends on the person but, some can be enlightened or understand more than you give them credit for. Depends on how open they are. Sometimes you can see things that they can't and vice versa. More recently I lost a good friend, but, I can't blame him, I was not much of a friend, I was being too selfish and wraped up in my own drama, it really stings to be on the receiving end. I try not to judge people and take them how they are and where they are in their life and I have learned that open communication is part of being a good friend, taking the good and the bad, accepting each other, faults and all, even if you don't agree on things. Enemies will tell you lies but real friends will tell you the truth.
    Our love must not be just words, but True Love, which shows itself in action,
    No one needs a smile more than someone who fails to give one,
    After you die...you know how to LIVE!
  • depopulationINCdepopulationINC Posts: 2,074
    twin1 wrote:
    That is sad depop. I hate loosing friends, especially if I care about them alot. I had to do that with my best friend when I was younger, I hated hurting her but knew I was tired of getting in trouble and that I was heading down the wrong road. Sometimes I wish I could go back though and tell her what was on my mind and what I saw so she would have understood instead of leaving her hanging. It may have saved our friendship. If I were just more honest about it. It depends on the person but, some can be enlightened or understand more than you give them credit for. Depends on how open they are. Sometimes you can see things that they can't and vice versa. More recently I lost a good friend, but, I can't blame him, I was not much of a friend, I was being too selfish and wraped up in my own drama, it really stings to be on the receiving end. I try not to judge people and take them how they are and where they are in their life and I have learned that open communication is part of being a good friend, taking the good and the bad, accepting each other, faults and all, even if you don't agree on things. Enemies will tell you lies but real friends will tell you the truth.


    yes, but hurting people is fun.... yes?
    The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!

    And I won't make the same mistakes
    (Because I know)
    Because I know how much time that wastes
    (And function)
    Function is the key
  • twin1twin1 Posts: 902
    depopulationINC wrote:
    yes, but hurting people is fun.... yes?

    I hope you are joking. Absolutely not! Well, I guess maybe some like it, but it makes me feel ill, however I know that I am very soft-hearted. I think hurting people is awful.
    Our love must not be just words, but True Love, which shows itself in action,
    No one needs a smile more than someone who fails to give one,
    After you die...you know how to LIVE!
  • depopulationINCdepopulationINC Posts: 2,074
    twin1 wrote:
    I hope you are joking. Absolutely not! Well, I guess maybe some like it, but it makes me feel ill, however I know that I am very soft-hearted. I think hurting people is awful.


    no no....your getting me all wrong. Hurting people is awful. I was referring to hurting friends....that's fun right?
    The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!

    And I won't make the same mistakes
    (Because I know)
    Because I know how much time that wastes
    (And function)
    Function is the key
  • twin1twin1 Posts: 902
    depopulationINC wrote:
    no no....your getting me all wrong. Hurting people is awful. I was referring to hurting friends....that's fun right?

    No, I don't think hurting anyone is fun, especially friends. I like to joke around with friends but I would not want to hurt them and if I do I feel bad about it. Don't you?
    Our love must not be just words, but True Love, which shows itself in action,
    No one needs a smile more than someone who fails to give one,
    After you die...you know how to LIVE!
  • depopulationINCdepopulationINC Posts: 2,074
    twin1 wrote:
    No, I don't think hurting anyone is fun, especially friends. I like to joke around with friends but I would not want to hurt them and if I do I feel bad about it. Don't you?

    hurting not fun? I don't understand......what do you do for enjoyment. And how do you pass time if not plotting against others
    The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!

    And I won't make the same mistakes
    (Because I know)
    Because I know how much time that wastes
    (And function)
    Function is the key
  • twin1twin1 Posts: 902
    depopulationINC wrote:
    hurting not fun? I don't understand......what do you do for enjoyment. And how do you pass time if not plotting against others

    What a waste of time and brain to plot against people. It gives me too much of a headache. I would rather be doing something that feels good and making others feel good too. I have had far too much drama in my life to want to create more bad stuff. That happens without me even trying! :)
    Our love must not be just words, but True Love, which shows itself in action,
    No one needs a smile more than someone who fails to give one,
    After you die...you know how to LIVE!
  • depopulationINCdepopulationINC Posts: 2,074
    twin1 wrote:
    What a waste of time and brain to plot against people. It gives me too much of a headache. I would rather be doing something that feels good and making others feel good too. I have had far too much drama in my life to want to create more bad stuff. That happens without me even trying! :)

    see now, the trick is to simply stop caring :)
    The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!

    And I won't make the same mistakes
    (Because I know)
    Because I know how much time that wastes
    (And function)
    Function is the key
  • twin1twin1 Posts: 902
    depopulationINC wrote:
    see now, the trick is to simply stop caring :)

    Stop caring hugh? How do I do that? I don't think that's in me. :)
    Our love must not be just words, but True Love, which shows itself in action,
    No one needs a smile more than someone who fails to give one,
    After you die...you know how to LIVE!
  • depopulationINCdepopulationINC Posts: 2,074
    twin1 wrote:
    Stop caring hugh? How do I do that? I don't think that's in me. :)

    I find that the easiest way is to think of the one thing you hate about somebody, focus entirely on that. Then drink/drug while thinking about that. You will bleed all the good stuff out. If you don't care you can't be hurt, hence my latest thread...Descent (5 sections)...actually inspired by our little conversation here.
    The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!

    And I won't make the same mistakes
    (Because I know)
    Because I know how much time that wastes
    (And function)
    Function is the key
  • twin1twin1 Posts: 902
    depopulationINC wrote:
    I find that the easiest way is to think of the one thing you hate about somebody, focus entirely on that. Then drink/drug while thinking about that. You will bleed all the good stuff out. If you don't care you can't be hurt, hence my latest thread...Descent (5 sections)...actually inspired by our little conversation here.

    I don't really hate. That is too draining. The one person I could if I allowed myself to I try not to let get that much energy out of me. If I don't care and abuse myself they would be happy to see it. I am not giving him that power over me anymore. Besides, isn't that running away and just destroying yourself? Burying stuff doesn't make it go away, it just covers it up.
    Our love must not be just words, but True Love, which shows itself in action,
    No one needs a smile more than someone who fails to give one,
    After you die...you know how to LIVE!
  • depopulationINCdepopulationINC Posts: 2,074
    twin1 wrote:
    I don't really hate. That is too draining. The one person I could if I allowed myself to I try not to let get that much energy out of me. If I don't care and abuse myself they would be happy to see it. I am not giving him that power over me anymore. Besides, isn't that running away and just destroying yourself? Burying stuff doesn't make it go away, it just covers it up.


    you do realise I have been using complete sarcasm yes?
    The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!

    And I won't make the same mistakes
    (Because I know)
    Because I know how much time that wastes
    (And function)
    Function is the key
  • twin1twin1 Posts: 902
    depopulationINC wrote:
    you do realise I have been using complete sarcasm yes?

    Yeah I figured, but just in case... :)

    Besides, it would not be unheard of for people to hate, drink and use drugs to numb pain...people do it all of the time, not a whole lot surprises me of what people do
    Our love must not be just words, but True Love, which shows itself in action,
    No one needs a smile more than someone who fails to give one,
    After you die...you know how to LIVE!
  • depopulationINCdepopulationINC Posts: 2,074
    twin1 wrote:
    Yeah I figured, but just in case... :)

    Besides, it would not be unheard of for people to hate, drink and use drugs to numb pain...people do it all of the time, not a whole lot surprises me of what people do

    too true....
    The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!

    And I won't make the same mistakes
    (Because I know)
    Because I know how much time that wastes
    (And function)
    Function is the key
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