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I'm Still Learning

eMMIeMMI Posts: 6,262
edited March 2006 in Poetry, Prose, Music & Art
twelve years of school
where does it leave me?
a little bit smarter
a little more knowledge in my head

almost nineteen years of life
where does it leave me?
a little bit wiser
a little more experiences in my heart

I have failed many times
a bad grade, a hurtful word
I have had successes
a well written paper, a loving kiss

what now?
so many things I'm yet to know
I don't know much about politics
but I can be politically correct
I can't differ Chopin from Haydn
but I do love a beautiful melody
and I haven't studied the theories of Freud
but I know how comforting a hug can be

so, what now?
more school? (please, not yet)
work? (where can I find a job?)
travel around the world? (yes please but it scares me)

you may think of me
as an ignorant young girl
or a dumb little bitch
but this I need you to know:

I want to embrace the world
I want to fall asleep under the stars
I want to buy some kid an ice-cream
I want to take you for a walk
I want to memorize useless little facts
I want to hug and be hugged

think of me what you will
but please be gentle
I'm still learning
one day, you just sit tight
I'll invite you to my graduation
"Don't be faint-hearted, I have a solution! We shall go and commandeer some small craft, then drift at leisure until we happen upon another ideal place for our waterside supper with riparian entertainments."
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  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 29,003
    now the real learning begins. you've got the basics, it's time to build on them.
    :):)
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • eMMIeMMI Posts: 6,262
    catefrances wrote:
    now the real learning begins. you've got the basics, it's time to build on them.
    :):)

    :) thank you.



    btw. I don't know if it's noticeable but I borrowed a line from Robbie Williams. :) "please be gentle, I'm still learning"
    "Don't be faint-hearted, I have a solution! We shall go and commandeer some small craft, then drift at leisure until we happen upon another ideal place for our waterside supper with riparian entertainments."
  • karma defectkarma defect Posts: 5,483
    Wow, .................... fragile!

    Really pure.

    Thank U

    Travel around the world? (yes please but it scares me)


    I don't know how serious I have to take the scares me part.

    But I'll tell you this anyway.

    When I was as old as you R now (Jesus, I'm sounding really old right now) I had all these wild plans. I was gonna see the world, and learn about it, and figure out what I wanted and who I was.
    I never did, I had reasons (probable bad one's) and I had fun anyway just staying put. But now I'm in a steady relationship and allthough I'm still willing to see the world (finance is holding me back) it isn't gonna be the way it could've been back then. Couldn't go for like a year now, I'd miss my girl.

    A friend of mine wanted to do the same thing, but he had doubts as well. I really encouraged him to go, and he did. He has been to aussie land for a year. Lifed in England for half a year. Came back to Holland worked and saved up for yet another year. And is now off for one and a half year. He went to travel through Russia, Mongolia, China and is now in Indonesia where his mom joined up for a three week vacation.


    In short he took the step, and is now living his dream. Off corse the down side is I don't get to see him, but Im really happy for him.

    He is doing great.

    Be brave eMMi go off to see the world. All the other things will still be there when you get back.

    Good karma to Ya
    « One man's glory is another man's hell.
    You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
    Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
    I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
    I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
  • eMMIeMMI Posts: 6,262
    oh karma, thank you for that. :) (thank you sounds pretty lame sometimes but I really mean it!!)

    I'm pretty serious with the scares me part.. since I've never really travelled and if I would decide to do it now, I'd be doing it on my own. so it's really scary, but intriguing.

    thank you for sharing that with me (and all the other people reading this). it's a really inspiring story.
    I'm happy for your friend and happy for you too since things seem to have worked out good for you too.

    and btw. no, you don't sound that old. :)
    "Don't be faint-hearted, I have a solution! We shall go and commandeer some small craft, then drift at leisure until we happen upon another ideal place for our waterside supper with riparian entertainments."
  • karma defectkarma defect Posts: 5,483
    Well thank U you make me feel young, hahahaha.

    No, I feel young by myself it's just, I'm not 19 any more.
    Allthough one often feels uncertain at that age(I did), it's a good age to have, not too much resposibility's and the world is yours for the taking.
    Everything (well a lot) yet to be discovered, I'd like to go back. Not to do things differently but just to reexperience the trip.

    However 28 is a good age as well, I mean I have survived 27 (Jim, Jimi, Janis, Kurt) and I have yet to accieve alot. But it was a nice time, nower days I've been in every bar twice and been to every restaurant.

    I need more money and then go see the 7 world mirricals. I'd like to own a little sailboat, and within now and the next 5 years I'll stand on top of a mountain.

    Sorry, for a minute there I lost myself. Hihihihi(RH) ah drifting, drifting, drifting away.
    But you you're young take adventage girl, the world is yours.
    « One man's glory is another man's hell.
    You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
    Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
    I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
    I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
  • karma defectkarma defect Posts: 5,483
    I was just looking of photo's of PJ fans, and what do you know...... you're not a girl. But I guess you knew that. It's just That eMMI is in dutch a girls name.
    So sorry.

    However I repeat that you're young take adventage DUDE, the world is yours.

    Bye the way do you know Architecture in Helsinki?

    Cool band!!
    « One man's glory is another man's hell.
    You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
    Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
    I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
    I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
  • karma defectkarma defect Posts: 5,483
    What a shame I can't edit here. would have been handy!
    « One man's glory is another man's hell.
    You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
    Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
    I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
    I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 29,003
    i know architecture in helsinki.
    in fact i'm doing the whirlwind right now.
    where are you karma???
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • karma defectkarma defect Posts: 5,483
    catefrances wrote:
    i know architecture in helsinki.
    in fact i'm doing the whirlwind right now.
    where are you karma???


    I'm right here, I just made sure our star went for a good pee.
    « One man's glory is another man's hell.
    You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
    Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
    I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
    I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
  • karma defectkarma defect Posts: 5,483
    Now I'm completly of track. I was strolling through the picture gallery and again I saw the name eMMI. So I click and to my surprice you're noe longer a dude with a beard from aproximetly 10 days, you're a girl again.

    It fits better with your poam too. The only way you could surprice me now is by telling me you're a shape shifter.

    you may think of me
    as an ignorant young girl
    or a dumb little bitch
    but this I need you to know:
    « One man's glory is another man's hell.
    You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
    Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
    I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
    I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
  • Being EnlightenedBeing Enlightened Posts: 5,746
    :) Absolutely sweet and very naked and open, eMMI-lou. I really enjoyed your poem and it left me smiling from ear to ear! :D
    Forget your perfect offering, there is a crack in everything, that's how the light gets in. - Leonard Cohen
  • eMMIeMMI Posts: 6,262
    Being Enlightened wrote:
    :) Absolutely sweet and very naked and open, eMMI-lou. I really enjoyed your poem and it left me smiling from ear to ear! :D

    thank you dearly BE.
    you calling me eMMI-lou makes me smile from ear to ear. :)

    I'm glad you enjoyed it. :):)
    "Don't be faint-hearted, I have a solution! We shall go and commandeer some small craft, then drift at leisure until we happen upon another ideal place for our waterside supper with riparian entertainments."
  • Being EnlightenedBeing Enlightened Posts: 5,746
    eMMI wrote:
    thank you dearly BE.
    you calling me eMMI-lou makes me smile from ear to ear. :)

    I'm glad you enjoyed it. :):)

    :D:D:D Thank you for sharing and for being a fellow silly, smiley girl alongside me. :) I just love the smiley's--they so cute!!!! :)
    Forget your perfect offering, there is a crack in everything, that's how the light gets in. - Leonard Cohen
  • eMMIeMMI Posts: 6,262
    Being Enlightened wrote:
    :D:D:D Thank you for sharing and for being a fellow silly, smiley girl alongside me. :) I just love the smiley's--they so cute!!!! :)

    it's all my pleasure. if I weren't a silly smiley girl I would not exist. :):):)
    one time I thought I lost the silly smiley side of me but if that happened anytime, at least you picked it up again. (along with other people here. :) ) :):)

    they really are!! :):):):D:):D:D:)
    "Don't be faint-hearted, I have a solution! We shall go and commandeer some small craft, then drift at leisure until we happen upon another ideal place for our waterside supper with riparian entertainments."
  • twin1twin1 Posts: 902
    Very sweet, honest, and genuine...good read...made me smile! :)
    Our love must not be just words, but True Love, which shows itself in action,
    No one needs a smile more than someone who fails to give one,
    After you die...you know how to LIVE!
  • eMMIeMMI Posts: 6,262
    twin1 wrote:
    Very sweet, honest, and genuine...good read...made me smile! :)

    thank you dearly twinnie. :D:)
    "Don't be faint-hearted, I have a solution! We shall go and commandeer some small craft, then drift at leisure until we happen upon another ideal place for our waterside supper with riparian entertainments."
  • twin2twin2 Posts: 894
    I too enjoyed this one eMMi. Really nice.
  • eMMIeMMI Posts: 6,262
    twin2 wrote:
    I too enjoyed this one eMMi. Really nice.

    thank you too.. well, can't really call you twinnie now can I? :) thank you twinny. :D
    "Don't be faint-hearted, I have a solution! We shall go and commandeer some small craft, then drift at leisure until we happen upon another ideal place for our waterside supper with riparian entertainments."
  • coachchriscoachchris Kelowna, British Columbia, Canada Posts: 749
    I really "felt" this poem and this post has taken on a greatness to it. I love coming here and reading what's been shared.

    I too have a friend who's over the pond and I miss him dearly. He took his student loan money and took off without telling anyone in university. He randomly comes home and surprises us all and tells of great accomplishments and stories. Picking grapes and daffodils in Greece, sleeping on the beaches of Morroco and spending new years 2000 on the peak of Mt. Killamangero.

    Like I said, I miss him dearly, we had some really really great times. Take the step eMMI, it's one you surely won't regret.

    Off He Goes carries so much meaning for me....

    Thanks for sharing, this truly moved me!!
    Adolescence in essence is all about trust.
    Leaving is for the answering machine.
  • eMMIeMMI Posts: 6,262
    thank you for your kind words and for sharing your story coachchris. :)

    I'm glad you find my poem moving and an extra thanks for also encouraging me.
    "Don't be faint-hearted, I have a solution! We shall go and commandeer some small craft, then drift at leisure until we happen upon another ideal place for our waterside supper with riparian entertainments."
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