Infinite saddness

stoneygali
stoneygali Posts: 148
edited April 2006 in Poetry, Prose, Music & Art
Infinite saddness dosen't begin to explain how I feel most of the time.
Shallow empty dark depleated
Jeremy...You don't know how many times I think of doing that to myslf and anyone around me. Ha! Ha! I think a lot of how people would look special wearing my brain matter and blood!
I was 13 then, and 10 years later and I'm still here.
One good thing is that I'm not a copycat suicide artist.
I'm still dealing with the same shit just at a different age.
some people would say, that's the fallbacks of having a diseased mind.
But I say fuck that! Fuck all of it.
It's a way of life.
Everyone feels like taking the last final fall.
It depends on if you get back up.
Then you move on, striving for the next challenge.
I may not understand evrything about my mental illness,
but I can learn from it.
I never meant to hurt you, mi diablo, mi amigo, but I've built up so much character I have an alter ego. I have to make a clean break & I have to do it quick because the pain you give me babe would make Cal Ripken call in sick!!!
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  • Mystique420
    Mystique420 Posts: 338
    If ya want to talk,... I sent ya a pm.... if not... take care of yourself.
    "To live,.... love,..... there's a song to be sung,....
    'cause we may not be the Young Ones,..."

    --first u sow the seed-- nature grows the seed-- then we eat the seed-- ;) nah,... we smoke it!
  • stoneygali
    stoneygali Posts: 148
    no I will talk
    I never meant to hurt you, mi diablo, mi amigo, but I've built up so much character I have an alter ego. I have to make a clean break & I have to do it quick because the pain you give me babe would make Cal Ripken call in sick!!!

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