what am I supposed to do

anonymous

Am I supposed to pretend that it didn't hurt
that the result left me doubled over in pain
like a fighter too stunned to defend himself
his towel should have been tossed a long time ago
Am I supposed to carry on the day like nothing happened
that this time the battle ended the lifelong war
the innocence of casualties left behind
they are faultless but must bear the scars of the blamed
Am I supposed to force myself to forget the past
that our history was just a grand illusion
and if we could have looked into the future
we would have stopped the present before it presented itself
Are we supposed to put this all behind us
should I continue to let the tears inside
slowly drown me and take me to the bottom
or is it time to face up to our truth
to free each other of the invisible shackles
that have chained us to this regretted life.

Ali

anonymous wrote:

Am I supposed to pretend that it didn't hurt
that the result left me doubled over in pain
like a fighter too stunned to defend himself
his towel should have been tossed a long time ago
Am I supposed to carry on the day like nothing happened
that this time the battle ended the lifelong war
the innocence of casualties left behind
they are faultless but must bear the scars of the blamed
Am I supposed to force myself to forget the past
that our history was just a grand illusion
and if we could have looked into the future
we would have stopped the present before it presented itself
Are we supposed to put this all behind us
should I continue to let the tears inside
slowly drown me and take me to the bottom
or is it time to face up to our truth
to free each other of the invisible shackles
that have chained us to this regretted life.

And this is great.
"I'd like to dedicate this to all the men who've wronged me and cheated or taken advantage of me"
Thank you for that release anon.....;)

justam

Try this maybe?

I remember the stunned defeat
I remember that sleep-walk
I remember drowning in my own sadness
all while taking care of others

smiling
working
being mom
one night someone noticed the veil
one night I realized that heavy sadness should come out

then I started writing
then I started crying
and the tears wouldn’t stop sometimes
I thought they’d just kill me
(but they didn’t)

you don’t have to display your sadness to everyone
but show it to the few who matter
and, perhaps let those tears out sooner rather than later
it seems to be the only way to live again

Being Enlightened

justam wrote:

Try this maybe?

I remember the stunned defeat
I remember that sleep-walk
I remember drowning in my own sadness
all while taking care of others

smiling
working
being mom
one night someone noticed the veil
one night I realized that heavy sadness should come out

then I started writing
then I started crying
and the tears wouldn’t stop sometimes
I thought they’d just kill me
(but they didn’t)

you don’t have to display your sadness to everyone
but show it to the few who matter
and, perhaps let those tears out sooner rather than later
it seems to be the only way to live again

Beautiflly said, justam! It's good to have someone who notices the veil, breaks down the facade and opens you up---that's a good freind!



And, anonymous,

"and if we could have looked into the future
we would have stopped the present before it presented itself"

---Excellent! I especially like the lines I quoted.

cartoonnightmare

well said..

violet ray

i love this.

your "searching for something" made me want to read the rest of yours so i did a search. on to number 3.