some stuff...

ju_the_drum_master

Drinking Again

I feel sick

I'm all alone

No one to comfort me


For the love of God,

Don't you do this to me tonight

Leave me alone,

Surrounded by people,

They don't give a shit tonight.



Friends will let you down for anything if they want.

Been drinking to forget this fucking pain.

I'm drowning again,

Obcurity all over me,

All over again,

Like it use to be.



Seems like it's always gonne be this way,

Forever, I'll be by all alone,

Tattooed to prove it.

Surrounded by people,

They don't give a shit tonight.

Surrounded by my ghosts,

Surrounded by my feelings.



It's all for you,

Just because of you,

Can't think of anything else but you.

You, you...


Nobody came to me tonight.

Nobody asked how I was really doing.

Always asking, never listening.

I've been feeling alone for a while...

I've been lying to myself for a while.


The Lost Feeling

I'm empty again,

Can't express how I feel,

Don't know how to put it into words.

The greatest feeling's been riped off

Of my heart yesterday.

I lost it as I was taking a sip of beer.

It was gone,

Couldn't feel anything.

I'm now numb.


I better stay this way,

So I can't feel the pain

That no one seems to see.

Pain painted all over me...


Love VS Hate

I love you deeply

I love you for your bright eyes

I love you for your great smile

And 'cause we like the same shit.

I love your habits

I love the way you talk to me

It's like you care about me...yeah

Like you'd care about me...right



I tried everything to get you

I never did that much before

for someone I barely know

Just thought I could try

To make you notice me,

Notice me the way I should be,

Like I should've been

All those years ago.

You're killing me

Please don't smile or look at me

I'm slowly dying, I'm losing my feelings.



I really hate you,

I hate you 'cause I know you lie.

You lie to me constantly.

I hate you 'cause I know you don't care,

You don't give a shit when I speak.

I hate you 'cause you only listen to yourself.



I hate you,

You just don't seem to see all I can give.

I hate you, you don't see that all I'd like for tonight is you, you, you...

I hate you 'cause you don't look at me

The way I'd like you to.

I hate you 'cause you made me love you.

I hate you and I know you hate me too.

ju_the_drum_master

I've been thinking about you for a moment today.
Now it seems that this bright and sunny day
is turning into a cold and cloudy day
'cause you're the one who caused my unhapiness.
And I sure as hell feel like
I'd prefer to forget you.

Once I told you a lie, just a joke
But that lie turned into reality, poor me.
Oh how I wish I could go back in time
And try not to drink as much
The thing that made me say something so true...

But is it really true ?
Maybe I'm just confusing my feelings
Desire and love can be so close sometimes.

Maybe I just want you in my bed, now.
Well maybe I'd like you to stay a little longer
in my life.
Though I don't even know what I feel
I fear everything surrounding you,
I even fear summer's sun on my delicate skin.

Can I take my memories and put them
All away in a place where nobody, even me,
would find them ?
Can I simply burn all my memories away
So I could finally be free,
Free from the fear that is killing me.
The fear that is constantly leaving me,
all alone, by myself, no one, but myself.

I'd rather stay alone
Then to be laughed at.
I'd rather be alone all my life
Then to have to face the fears and laughs.

I wonder how it feels to be touched
by someone who loves you,
by someone who don't judge you
I guess I'll never know
My fear is still
And I can't find anybody to love.
And I can't find someone who truly loves me.

burtschips

love and hate, can't you balance them a bit? thought the poems were good.

ju_the_drum_master

Thanks for the comments. I wrote that (the love/hate one) about a year ago and I really could not balance them for this person in particular! Maybe now I could, but back then I could not...