The Gate Of Hope For Me

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I'm losing this battle towards the end.
It has all taken it's toll.
Into this grave with my only friend,
It's all I'll ever know.
I'm amazed at the rate I'm going though,
The praise of biting my tongue.
When all I want is to scream at you,
For forceing this will to run.
Away from you and I, I beg,
Understanding that it's fate.
I tried so fucking hard to hold on,
But I have to let go to get through that gate.
The one that symbolizes smiles,
My laughter has seized to exist.
But if I just get through them, you see,
It won't be to late to reenlist.
I have to get through that gate,
You have held me back too long.
This is my only chance,
To make right with all your wrongs.
I will never be there with you,
That place we used to be.
It's out of my humble hands now,
If you could just let this be.
I want nothing but the best for you,
You have given to me as well.
This has been the hardest for me,
In case you couldn't tell.
What I write holds no weight,
Meaning nothing if never said.
Even though you had never listened,
My fingers now are dead.