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It's Called Unfaithfull...I Wasn't Trying to Marry You

anxietypleaseanxietyplease Posts: 48
edited August 2005 in Poetry, Prose, Music & Art
I never meant to be so mean but I had had alot to drink that night.
I heard it was you on her phone and I grabbed it. I couldn't wait to talk to you again. To find out why you called my house. God, how I obsessed over you for so long. Before we spent time together. Before your wife went to Florida. When she left for that one week, I was in so much glory. But then Friday came and Saturday came and she was there again. You were supposed to tell me that you had had enough. Or you were working through things with her. Or SOMETHING!! But I think you loved the way I looked when I looked for you. Months...I was losing weight. I was lookin good for you. And you called my house. You were drunk and wondering when I'd be home again. After not calling for 2 months. So I gave it to you that night. How the words and harshness flew out before I could remember what I said already. I don't even know what I said to you. But if you could just let me know and stop hiding like you, all to often, do. By the way...I heard you don't even sleep with your wife anymore. How's that working out?
I'm over you. But this friendship wasn't supposed to be. I'm a married women...what were you thinking?
"If it takes my whole life, I won't break I won't bend."
-S. McLachlan
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  • trappedinmyradiotrappedinmyradio Posts: 1,189
    anxietyplease wrote:
    But I think you loved the way I looked when I looked for you.

    . . .

    I was lookin good for you.

    i think that those two lines sum it up pretty well.

    barrage...hit me in the face with something...
    I'll dig a tunnel
    from my window to yours
  • anxietypleaseanxietyplease Posts: 48
    looking like an idiot is what i should have wrote...i always find ways to make an ass of myself.
    "If it takes my whole life, I won't break I won't bend."
    -S. McLachlan
  • ISNISN Posts: 1,700
    don't be silly......you're great......you haven't made an ass of yoruself......and you won't ever......:)
    ....they're asking me to prove why I should be allowed to stay with my baby in Australia, because I'm mentally ill......and they think I should leave......
  • trappedinmyradiotrappedinmyradio Posts: 1,189
    anxietyplease wrote:
    looking like an idiot is what i should have wrote...i always find ways to make an ass of myself.

    hey, that's my department -
    I'll dig a tunnel
    from my window to yours
  • ISNISN Posts: 1,700
    it's my total nightmare to be considered a fool.....after I've had a few drinks and written rubbish on teh intahweb, I wake up the next day.....desperately crawling through my brain to detect any hints of my having made an ass of myself.....usually, I haven't, and sometimes people are kind enough to ignore the instances when I have......so it's not just your department TIR (Tir means 'land' in Irish.....I'll call you TIR).....for example, I don't think I've seen you say something stupid.....whereas, in my case.......
    ....they're asking me to prove why I should be allowed to stay with my baby in Australia, because I'm mentally ill......and they think I should leave......
  • trappedinmyradiotrappedinmyradio Posts: 1,189
    ISN wrote:
    it's my total nightmare to be considered a fool.....after I've had a few drinks and written rubbish on teh intahweb, I wake up the next day.....desperately crawling through my brain to detect any hints of my having made an ass of myself.....usually, I haven't, and sometimes people are kind enough to ignore the instances when I have......so it's not just your department TIR (Tir means 'land' in Irish.....I'll call you TIR).....for example, I don't think I've seen you say something stupid.....whereas, in my case.......

    keep reading...you find lots of stuff...
    I'll dig a tunnel
    from my window to yours
  • ISNISN Posts: 1,700
    now you're being silly....I seriously doubt it.....
    ....they're asking me to prove why I should be allowed to stay with my baby in Australia, because I'm mentally ill......and they think I should leave......
  • trappedinmyradiotrappedinmyradio Posts: 1,189
    ISN wrote:
    now you're being silly....I seriously doubt it.....

    pining for someone that will never be there...and i know that for a fact...if you ask me...that's pretty stupid.
    I'll dig a tunnel
    from my window to yours
  • anxietypleaseanxietyplease Posts: 48
    sometimes i choose to make an ass of myself...lol not all the time. however. in this case, he wasnt even pretending to pay any attention to my need. the need of knowing why he stopped it all in a blink of an eye. i thought i had a choice in the matter. like a say of what should be done. after all, i was the other person. the one that he abided by when there was noone else. so in another way of saying all of this, i was just a RELEASE. just something that happened. what are ya gonna do. im not sad about it. not even mad. he's a loser and doesnt know what he wants so in the process of finding that...he fucks and lies and steals and hides. im here because i want to be, not because i dont have him.
    "If it takes my whole life, I won't break I won't bend."
    -S. McLachlan
  • anxietypleaseanxietyplease Posts: 48
    ISN wrote:
    it's my total nightmare to be considered a fool.....after I've had a few drinks and written rubbish on teh intahweb, I wake up the next day.....desperately crawling through my brain to detect any hints of my having made an ass of myself.....usually, I haven't, and sometimes people are kind enough to ignore the instances when I have......so it's not just your department TIR (Tir means 'land' in Irish.....I'll call you TIR).....for example, I don't think I've seen you say something stupid.....whereas, in my case.......
    thats the difference between humans and animals....we have the knowlegde to forgive and forget. and of course....have a good laugh at all the drunken ramblers you see here and there. I, myself , am one of them from time to time. although its been awhile since ive been at the pit completely lit. i usually dont even make it to the bed by that time. hehe
    "If it takes my whole life, I won't break I won't bend."
    -S. McLachlan
  • anxietypleaseanxietyplease Posts: 48
    trappedinmyradio wrote:
    hey, that's my department -
    then we can be an ass together. think about it. you need 2 cheeks to be an ass. accomplices(spelling)shall we?
    "If it takes my whole life, I won't break I won't bend."
    -S. McLachlan
  • anxietypleaseanxietyplease Posts: 48
    ISN wrote:
    don't be silly......you're great......you haven't made an ass of yoruself......and you won't ever......:)
    boy are you wrong....lol i like to make ppl laugh so ass is my middle name...
    "If it takes my whole life, I won't break I won't bend."
    -S. McLachlan
  • trappedinmyradiotrappedinmyradio Posts: 1,189
    anxietyplease wrote:
    then we can be an ass together. think about it. you need 2 cheeks to be an ass. accomplices(spelling)shall we?

    am i left or right (to the person looking from behind)?
    I'll dig a tunnel
    from my window to yours
  • anxietypleaseanxietyplease Posts: 48
    trappedinmyradio wrote:
    am i left or right (to the person looking from behind)?
    which hand do you write with? i write with my left....
    "If it takes my whole life, I won't break I won't bend."
    -S. McLachlan
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