October Rusts as Winter Brings Sleep to the Land

reeferchief

Falling apart, the best way to describe
emotionally challenged,
when the moment needs a kick start
I'll be the arsehole rolling
and shaking in the corner
no bottle, no determination,
just watching it all come down
willing for me to die with it,
so I dont have to live with the torment
of knowing it was my fault,
I am that shit, I am that useless
inept and ripe with decay,
ravaged by the paranoia
plagued by being a waste of your time
I should be locked up for my crimes,
but still I'm here wasting away
watching it all turn to shit,
to dust, to rust, rotting to the end
a vivid portrait of nothing,
all my heartaches, all the pain feels so good
to feel pain is to live,
to know mortality is by my side,
to know there will be an end,
gives me some hope
knowing one day I will die.

catefrances

to know there will be an end,
gives me some hope
knowing one day I will die.

but sometimes one day isnt soon enough.