Another failure Met by Rapturous Applause

reeferchief

exploring what I believe in
cracks start to appear
and I begin to realise
what I thought solid
now liquidising in fear
all these years of confidence
now slipping by the wayside
now liquidating to nothing
becoming what I hear
becoming hearsay
branded around by people
I'd rather soon forget
but cant escape
their clutch it grasps
so very tight
not letting go
for all my might
I cant escape this
my future subsides
and the stage is lit
for me to be made a fool of
by the feelings I cant requite
please just let me dissapear
dont make this mockery of me
let me go quietly
but I cant
I have to stay
and be made light of
centered in negative attention
ACHTUNG! the fool he rises
let him fall in a quagmire of shit
for he is destined to fail
although his feelings are legit
nothing ever goes right now
and he's forced to admit
he fucked up again
and its all his fault once more.