Feelings

miskinmiskin Posts: 278
the sullen dam of my mind
which only i can see
harbours the shady, self imposed
malevolence and malice of my agression
of which i dare call life.

my funeral has passed, i am
a casualty of my own desire
and hatred for others
has dark fatalities
for me there is no end

I live to torment myself
the transparent dessension is apparent,
i see nothing
only pitch black moods
that swing me in any direction

i might go, all i see,
is that imcompatible charm,
that lust for resentment,
don't try to understand me.
for me there is no help.



i wrote this when suicidal/stoned
myspace.com/airstriponeuk
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  • Ms. HaikuMs. Haiku Washington DC Posts: 7,279
    Who thought confirmation could be deadly,
    but an overdose sounded just right.
    Luckily someone was watching over me,
    and influenced me to take a nap.

    I would have missed this perfect Christmas.
    I would have missed joy.
    I only had to make it through adolescence
    and get my mind on the road.

    To this day I say "thanks" to an empty room,
    and when songs remind me of that day
    I turn the volume very low
    or sing at the top of my lungs.
    There is no such thing as leftover pizza. There is now pizza and later pizza. - anonymous
    The risk I took was calculated, but man, am I bad at math - The Mincing Mockingbird
  • miskinmiskin Posts: 278
    thats beautiful, biobella. did you just make that up on the spot?
    myspace.com/airstriponeuk
  • Ms. HaikuMs. Haiku Washington DC Posts: 7,279
    Yep, right on the spot. I thought of that day (of 23 years ago) when I read your poem, so it basically flowed through.
    There is no such thing as leftover pizza. There is now pizza and later pizza. - anonymous
    The risk I took was calculated, but man, am I bad at math - The Mincing Mockingbird
  • miskinmiskin Posts: 278
    how olds who? me? im 16
    myspace.com/airstriponeuk
  • miskinmiskin Posts: 278
    ahh, im fine now, no worrying. Thanks for the concern :-)
    myspace.com/airstriponeuk
  • I love the line, caualty of my desires..
    It doesnt hurt.... when I bleed
    but memories...they eat me
    I've seen it all before,...
    bring it on cause I'm no victim.
    -Ghost
  • miskinmiskin Posts: 278
    :-) its not a bad line lol
    myspace.com/airstriponeuk
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