agoraphobia

Trujeeper

so I needed to go
but I didn't
so I had to go
but I couldn't
so I wanted to go
but I knew I shouldn't
I am afraid to go
I'll fall
I'll cry
It will be awful
they will see
they will laugh
So I stay
alone
locked in
locking them out
locking them all out
I don't live on grey street
I don't live anywhere
I just exist
lonely
afraid

they tell me it is a disfunction
they tell me to get over it
they give me pills
they threaten to lock me up

they don't understand
they are out there
I can see them
they will hurt me, even if they don't mean to
I will be hurt just the same
so I stay in
alone
afraid
lonely