I feel it welling up inside and Robert Smith lied, boys do cry
and with blood tears in my eyes i'm an Anne Rice novel come to life,
i can't hide the monster anymore
one can only feel desolate for so long until one starts to change into something the mirror doesn't recognize,
I metamorphosize, the darkness has been biding it's time to claim it's latest victim, fresh meat for carnal desires, to become what i became, i viewed the sun for the last time.
Will you still hold me when you see what i have done?
Will you still kiss me the same when you taste my victims blood?
so crimson and red i feel it flowing from your lips,
my heart is dead and so are you.
And it pulses through, the desire to change, to deconstruct all of my past failings, but where to begin because when you live in sin it's hard to look at saints without them reflecting their jet black auras back on you.
And all i have is hope, and all i need is time, to bury in pine under six feet of time
the lies i told me about myself, claw my way out pick the splinters from under
my fingernails, i won't lose hope, i won't give in. Just live and breath try
not to die again.
You ask me to enter
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
but hey,i saw rainbows last week in skies that hadnt seen rain for weeks......
i didnt even know that was possible......
in time you will realize a lot of things are possible that dont seem so now.
such as a killer smile on your face matched by the most important smile,the one that is in the eyes....
take care my friend....
out....
i can make it reach the face if i have to...i don't believe it's hit the eyes in a while.
thanks for the bit of rainbow today.
You ask me to enter
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
Paranoia is the insect worming it's way through my subconscious thoughts,
it's the larva of my self doubt, gestating in my heart as i spiral down and
everything i touch is breaking and it falls to earth in splinters and i
shiver as every splinter finds it's way underneath my skin, and after 22
years i can still make my skin crawl, every shortcoming a pitfall, on my way
to making amends within myself to be what i became. Sometimes it feels like
the whole wide world has made itself my enemy, but i will stand upon my own
two feet and raise my head up. I lick my wounds trying to cleanse the
infection, rabid and diseased reality fades away, when i pushed myself too
far, a dream of emotional perfection has left a wounded heart, trying to
perceive the gifts inherent inside me it's like squeezing the trigger, it's
like opening fire on everyone who's let me down, on every beautiful lie that
is only fiction for the first time, i'm losing control and i like it,
freedom feels like the noose is gone.
You ask me to enter
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
Yesterday I forgot to breathe for like the 6th time this week.
maybe it was the pink cloud strafed sky that changed my mind and brought me back
seems like every day it's kill or be killed...
with all this anger there is no time to inhale and progress
and catch the smell of something that you once knew.
have you ever stopped raised your face up to the sun and screamed
let it out exhale the pain
that strangulates your soul, when will I be free
my lungs take in the fragrance of remorse, what is the cost, am I living,
if you let your lungs fill up with pain then you will drown in your own regret.
my arms feel so numb my heart palpitates missing a beat.
the blood freezing in my veins. the taste of rust in my mouth.
But today I just threw it all away
though the light burns my eyes I will not be blind,
if you blink you could miss so much. please don't ever close your eyes
You ask me to enter
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
The breath of the morning
I keep forgetting.
The smell of the warm summer air.
I live in a town
where you can't smell a thing,
you watch your feet
for cracks in the pavement.
Up above
aliens hover
making home movies
for the folks back home,
of all these weird creatures
who lock up their spirits,
drill holes in themselves
and live for their secrets.
They're all uptight, uptight,
uptight, uptight,
uptight, uptight.
I wish that they'd sweep down in a country lane,
late at night when I'm driving.
Take me on board their beautiful ship,
show me the world as I'd love to see it.
I'd tell all my friends but they'd never believe me,
They'd think that I'd finally lost it completely.
I'd show them the stars and the meaning of life.
They'd shut me away.
But I'd be alright, alright,
I'd be alright,
I'm alright.
The breath of the morning
I keep forgetting.
The smell of the warm summer air.
I live in a town
where you can't smell a thing,
you watch your feet
for cracks in the pavement.
Up above
aliens hover
making home movies
for the folks back home,
of all these weird creatures
who lock up their spirits,
drill holes in themselves
and live for their secrets.
They're all uptight, uptight,
uptight, uptight,
uptight, uptight.
I wish that they'd sweep down in a country lane,
late at night when I'm driving.
Take me on board their beautiful ship,
show me the world as I'd love to see it.
I'd tell all my friends but they'd never believe me,
They'd think that I'd finally lost it completely.
I'd show them the stars and the meaning of life.
They'd shut me away.
But I'd be alright, alright,
I'd be alright,
I'm alright.
Sometimes I think I'm scared
Sometimes I know
I feel like making love
Sometimes I don't
I feel like letting go
Maybe not
I feel like giving up
Is all we got
Sometimes is all the time
And never means maybe
Sometimes is all the time
Maybe
And I'm moving on
And I'm moving on (Sometimes I feel alone)
And I'm moving on
And I'm moving on
Sometimes I make believe
When we're alone
Machines have taken hold
Can you get me to a telephone
It's just the little things
You used to see
Am I still that man who makes you who you want to be
I never noticed
How lovely were the aliens
Lovely were the aliens
I never noticed
Lovely were the aliens
Lovely were the aliens
You ask me to enter
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
And I can see her now, dancing around, her drink in hand, all her baggage in tow.
i just want to forget and let go of all the joy, all the pain.
i took your guilt and placed it into me, and now i kiss it goodbye, our last dance ended fatally.
Who's sleeping on my side of the bed tonight?
Have you ever cried so hard? Baby you just died. And there she goes again, another masquerade in flase circumstance, she'll fuck you just for the taste.
I just wish that i could replace all the memories of what makes my blood run cold,
and as your blood flows through me, I say goodbye to what we had.
She came and went , I gnawed through my lip, makeup smeared in her eyes, each sob is a reason to say goodbye.
Sometimes when you’re holding on you'll never see the light.
With flowers in her hair gazed upon with dead lovers eyes, she never looked so good
and I never felt so right. I felt so wrong.
You ask me to enter
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
Who died in the systematic procress that we call life
each indiscriminate event leading itself to the total destruction
the total annihilation of the beauty and spark of mankinds history
each failure is so symbolic of whats past and what yet left to be
un-dead or am i reall dying
whos to say that this is eternity
devoid of serenity
brings us closer to a label of hell
here we go are all we all dead
whats the stop, wheres the end
whats the stop, where do i end
save me from my sins
save us from the demons within
with another gone in this war to stay afloat
in this turmoil known as daily life breaking human spirit
lack of love abundance of dusgust
whos dead am i dead
what is death
whose to say that this is life?
Oh god the pain of the response
no reaction or are we indifferent
well whos will save us or are we already saved
well whos to say we need to be saved anyway.
You ask me to enter
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
What I see, is it real
Or just a stroke of my mind
And no one sees what I feel
She could be my fate once more
The bright light in her eyes
Could guide me through the darkest night
And the strength, she radiates
She must be one of my dreams
I can't describe what I feel for her
She is my incarnated phantasy
She must be a descended angel
Her seductive beauty makes me blind
Days without her - days without the sun
Like a desert without rain
Like a rose without its scent
My desire - someday passion
My desire - someday depression
She makes me feel, like I never did before
In every second she's the one that I adore
In lonely nights, I dream about her
And everyday I miss her caress
You ask me to enter
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
I feel this longing so strange and so bizarre
Until I will find you I'll keep it in the dark
A blaze bizarre burns in my heart
Brighter than the flame of fear
It feeds my wish to reach your love
To touch you in our dreams
When everything is withering
You're still my bleeding rose
And neither hate nor death can divide our love
My mind writes serenades for you
Like melodies of silence
Your shadow is trembling when I
Touch your skin and kiss your fear away
It's not easy to conceal
Fear with a masquerade of joy
Tears from a bleeding rose
Even purity can't wipe away
Sharing both, pleasure and pain
Sometimes passion is the same
Addicted to emotion, love and seduction
You ask me to enter
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
You ask me to enter
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
Long, lost words whisper slowly to me,
Still can't find what keeps me here.
When all this time i've been so hollow inside,
I know you're still there...
Watching me, wanting me,
I can feel you pull me down.
Fearing you, loving you.
I won't let you pull me down...
Hunting you i can smell you... Alive.
Your heart pounding in my head...
Watching me, wanting me,
I can feel you pull me down.
Saving me, raping me.
I won't let you pull me down...
Pull me down
You ask me to enter
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
It is a pain to see the plague produced by apathy.
To see you locked and bound, you plead. To see me grasp the key.
Compassion is foreign while the tears of the broken lavish me.
Souls in anguish die, and only hell they find.
The truth to bring the peace they seek is haunting me.
I'm haunted by the fact that I neglected every time you cried
I'm haunted by the fact I concealed the truth you need inside.
I'm the one to blame.
Will I grasp the reality that my comfort has blessed the killing?
My own eyes agree of my numbing to society around me.
I can't take this; you're dying. While I watch you trying.
Every breath you heave proclaims the rejection I've conceived.
I'd hate to be the one that's not there when you cry in sorrow.
I'd hate to be the one to watch you die tomorrow.
I doubt that you are strong enough to
survive forever, inside forever.
I'd hate to be the one to watch you die.
You ask me to enter
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
The words left scars
After they had silenced
To see something grow
Only to die away
The illusion of you
Always so intense
Your absence of emotion
The illusion of you
Together with your kisses you dried away
All these lonely times
Gathered deep inside
The illusion of you
Always so intense
Your absence of emotion
Always so intense
You ask me to enter
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
i thought this was a joke thread when i read the title... close.
it is, in a way...life's a joke sometimes :(
thanks though, that was really nice :rolleyes:
You ask me to enter
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
I saw angels - fallen from the sky
I saw immortals - afraid to die
Time is just a moment in eternity
But every dawn seems like the last one
With silent cries my life is passing by
Like echoes from the past that slowly fade
If love is a lie, what is all for
Remember every tear I've shed for you
Still you deny what you feel for me
Your eyes can't lie to me
You ask me to enter
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
The love we share is infected
A passion bittersweet
Dissolving to the music
A romantic act of tragedy
Moan and sigh entwined
Pale and sick and tired
In violet light embedded
Flowers greet the death of the loving
There's a beauty never known before
In this beauty we're deformed and sore
See the pain of a heart laid bare
In the strain of a heart laid bare
Dream of death, presentiment
Under a tragic sky
I close my eyes and dream away
To another year in another time
Illusion veils the face
Sleepwalkeyes of the loving
Features in melancholy
Flowers greet the death of the loving
There's a beauty never known before
In this beauty we're deformed and sore
See the pain of a heart laid bare
In the strain of a heart laid bare
You ask me to enter
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
this could go on forever...
i'll end it now, its not helping anyway.
i'll miss you always.
Rachel, thanks for listening to my cryptic bits and pieces.
Unseen, thanks for showing up with stories and words.
I wish I could have followed/been what you guys wanted me to.
Its not in me though.
Love you both, remember.
You ask me to enter
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
I was clipping this off the "under a tragic sky" line from the words above.
Now, I'm thinking I should've gotten some Fun Lovin' Criminals... (it's you, it's you, it's always been you, it's always been in you...) But hey, you know what? We are what we are! 1/2 the living glory of getting old is (funnily enough)... NOT trying to change so much as learning how to stand up for ourselves. Warts and All (but that's another band, entirely... tee hee). But not just for ourselves, but for ourselves TO ourselves... we being our own worst critics and the like....
You have been my friend when no one else could have possibly understood or appreciated what was going on. You've kept me sane when no other could. This goes way back now, doesn't it? Damn... can it be four years? Holy SMOKES. More than four! You put up with me going on and on and on and on and on and on and ON about myself and my life and my love and my X (even way back before he was my X).
If you ever want to run away from all that... you and yours welcome here. And... just a side note... the desert is wonderful for a girl's hair... you can wear it straight or curly, lol... no worries on humidity or other such meteorological nuisances... rain... shit like that...
So hey... just be kind to yourself. You're all you've got and life is too f'n short to go around bummin cuz you ain't something else. Like I said, I love you. And I wont ever forget yours, either.
Peace, mi jita
Rachel
New Year's Day
All is quiet on New Year's Day.
A world in white gets underway.
I want to be with you, be with you night and day.
Nothing changes on New Year's Day.
On New Year's Day.
I... will be with you again.
I... will be with you again.
Under a blood-red sky
A crowd has gathered in black and white
Arms entwined, the chosen few
The newspaper says, says
Say it's true, it's true...
And we can break through
Though torn in two
We can be one.
I... I will begin again
I... I will begin again.
Oh, oh. Oh, oh. Oh, oh.
Oh, maybe the time is right.
Oh, maybe tonight.
I will be with you again.
I will be with you again.
And so we are told this is the golden age
And gold is the reason for the wars we wage
Though I want to be with you
Be with you night and day
Nothing changes
On New Year's Day
On New Year's Day
On New Year's Day
you know... lol.... in a totally platonic kinda be-with-you way
What is going on? Email me. I dont come here much anymore, lost my old name and I know its been a while but I want to talk to you. Clear your messages so I can send you my addie.
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I feel it welling up inside and Robert Smith lied, boys do cry
and with blood tears in my eyes i'm an Anne Rice novel come to life,
i can't hide the monster anymore
one can only feel desolate for so long until one starts to change into something the mirror doesn't recognize,
I metamorphosize, the darkness has been biding it's time to claim it's latest victim, fresh meat for carnal desires, to become what i became, i viewed the sun for the last time.
Will you still hold me when you see what i have done?
Will you still kiss me the same when you taste my victims blood?
so crimson and red i feel it flowing from your lips,
my heart is dead and so are you.
And it pulses through, the desire to change, to deconstruct all of my past failings, but where to begin because when you live in sin it's hard to look at saints without them reflecting their jet black auras back on you.
And all i have is hope, and all i need is time, to bury in pine under six feet of time
the lies i told me about myself, claw my way out pick the splinters from under
my fingernails, i won't lose hope, i won't give in. Just live and breath try
not to die again.
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
i can make it reach the face if i have to...i don't believe it's hit the eyes in a while.
thanks for the bit of rainbow today.
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
Paranoia is the insect worming it's way through my subconscious thoughts,
it's the larva of my self doubt, gestating in my heart as i spiral down and
everything i touch is breaking and it falls to earth in splinters and i
shiver as every splinter finds it's way underneath my skin, and after 22
years i can still make my skin crawl, every shortcoming a pitfall, on my way
to making amends within myself to be what i became. Sometimes it feels like
the whole wide world has made itself my enemy, but i will stand upon my own
two feet and raise my head up. I lick my wounds trying to cleanse the
infection, rabid and diseased reality fades away, when i pushed myself too
far, a dream of emotional perfection has left a wounded heart, trying to
perceive the gifts inherent inside me it's like squeezing the trigger, it's
like opening fire on everyone who's let me down, on every beautiful lie that
is only fiction for the first time, i'm losing control and i like it,
freedom feels like the noose is gone.
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
Yesterday I forgot to breathe for like the 6th time this week.
maybe it was the pink cloud strafed sky that changed my mind and brought me back
seems like every day it's kill or be killed...
with all this anger there is no time to inhale and progress
and catch the smell of something that you once knew.
have you ever stopped raised your face up to the sun and screamed
let it out exhale the pain
that strangulates your soul, when will I be free
my lungs take in the fragrance of remorse, what is the cost, am I living,
if you let your lungs fill up with pain then you will drown in your own regret.
my arms feel so numb my heart palpitates missing a beat.
the blood freezing in my veins. the taste of rust in my mouth.
But today I just threw it all away
though the light burns my eyes I will not be blind,
if you blink you could miss so much. please don't ever close your eyes
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
The breath of the morning
I keep forgetting.
The smell of the warm summer air.
I live in a town
where you can't smell a thing,
you watch your feet
for cracks in the pavement.
Up above
aliens hover
making home movies
for the folks back home,
of all these weird creatures
who lock up their spirits,
drill holes in themselves
and live for their secrets.
They're all uptight, uptight,
uptight, uptight,
uptight, uptight.
I wish that they'd sweep down in a country lane,
late at night when I'm driving.
Take me on board their beautiful ship,
show me the world as I'd love to see it.
I'd tell all my friends but they'd never believe me,
They'd think that I'd finally lost it completely.
I'd show them the stars and the meaning of life.
They'd shut me away.
But I'd be alright, alright,
I'd be alright,
I'm alright.
I'm just uptight, uptight,
uptight, uptight,
uptight, uptight,
uptight, uptight,
uptight.
Sometimes I think I'm scared
Sometimes I know
I feel like making love
Sometimes I don't
I feel like letting go
Maybe not
I feel like giving up
Is all we got
Sometimes is all the time
And never means maybe
Sometimes is all the time
Maybe
And I'm moving on
And I'm moving on (Sometimes I feel alone)
And I'm moving on
And I'm moving on
Sometimes I make believe
When we're alone
Machines have taken hold
Can you get me to a telephone
It's just the little things
You used to see
Am I still that man who makes you who you want to be
I never noticed
How lovely were the aliens
Lovely were the aliens
I never noticed
Lovely were the aliens
Lovely were the aliens
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
And I can see her now, dancing around, her drink in hand, all her baggage in tow.
i just want to forget and let go of all the joy, all the pain.
i took your guilt and placed it into me, and now i kiss it goodbye, our last dance ended fatally.
Who's sleeping on my side of the bed tonight?
Have you ever cried so hard? Baby you just died. And there she goes again, another masquerade in flase circumstance, she'll fuck you just for the taste.
I just wish that i could replace all the memories of what makes my blood run cold,
and as your blood flows through me, I say goodbye to what we had.
She came and went , I gnawed through my lip, makeup smeared in her eyes, each sob is a reason to say goodbye.
Sometimes when you’re holding on you'll never see the light.
With flowers in her hair gazed upon with dead lovers eyes, she never looked so good
and I never felt so right. I felt so wrong.
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
Who died in the systematic procress that we call life
each indiscriminate event leading itself to the total destruction
the total annihilation of the beauty and spark of mankinds history
each failure is so symbolic of whats past and what yet left to be
un-dead or am i reall dying
whos to say that this is eternity
devoid of serenity
brings us closer to a label of hell
here we go are all we all dead
whats the stop, wheres the end
whats the stop, where do i end
save me from my sins
save us from the demons within
with another gone in this war to stay afloat
in this turmoil known as daily life breaking human spirit
lack of love abundance of dusgust
whos dead am i dead
what is death
whose to say that this is life?
Oh god the pain of the response
no reaction or are we indifferent
well whos will save us or are we already saved
well whos to say we need to be saved anyway.
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
What I see, is it real
Or just a stroke of my mind
And no one sees what I feel
She could be my fate once more
The bright light in her eyes
Could guide me through the darkest night
And the strength, she radiates
She must be one of my dreams
I can't describe what I feel for her
She is my incarnated phantasy
She must be a descended angel
Her seductive beauty makes me blind
Days without her - days without the sun
Like a desert without rain
Like a rose without its scent
My desire - someday passion
My desire - someday depression
She makes me feel, like I never did before
In every second she's the one that I adore
In lonely nights, I dream about her
And everyday I miss her caress
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
I feel this longing so strange and so bizarre
Until I will find you I'll keep it in the dark
A blaze bizarre burns in my heart
Brighter than the flame of fear
It feeds my wish to reach your love
To touch you in our dreams
When everything is withering
You're still my bleeding rose
And neither hate nor death can divide our love
My mind writes serenades for you
Like melodies of silence
Your shadow is trembling when I
Touch your skin and kiss your fear away
It's not easy to conceal
Fear with a masquerade of joy
Tears from a bleeding rose
Even purity can't wipe away
Sharing both, pleasure and pain
Sometimes passion is the same
Addicted to emotion, love and seduction
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
Still can't find what keeps me here.
When all this time i've been so hollow inside,
I know you're still there...
Watching me, wanting me,
I can feel you pull me down.
Fearing you, loving you.
I won't let you pull me down...
Hunting you i can smell you... Alive.
Your heart pounding in my head...
Watching me, wanting me,
I can feel you pull me down.
Saving me, raping me.
I won't let you pull me down...
Pull me down
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
To see you locked and bound, you plead. To see me grasp the key.
Compassion is foreign while the tears of the broken lavish me.
Souls in anguish die, and only hell they find.
The truth to bring the peace they seek is haunting me.
I'm haunted by the fact that I neglected every time you cried
I'm haunted by the fact I concealed the truth you need inside.
I'm the one to blame.
Will I grasp the reality that my comfort has blessed the killing?
My own eyes agree of my numbing to society around me.
I can't take this; you're dying. While I watch you trying.
Every breath you heave proclaims the rejection I've conceived.
I'd hate to be the one that's not there when you cry in sorrow.
I'd hate to be the one to watch you die tomorrow.
I doubt that you are strong enough to
survive forever, inside forever.
I'd hate to be the one to watch you die.
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
http://www.wishlistfoundation.org
Oh my, they dropped the leash.
Morgan Freeman/Clint Eastwood 08' for President!
"Make our day"
The words left scars
After they had silenced
To see something grow
Only to die away
The illusion of you
Always so intense
Your absence of emotion
The illusion of you
Together with your kisses you dried away
All these lonely times
Gathered deep inside
The illusion of you
Always so intense
Your absence of emotion
Always so intense
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
it is, in a way...life's a joke sometimes :(
thanks though, that was really nice :rolleyes:
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
I saw angels - fallen from the sky
I saw immortals - afraid to die
Time is just a moment in eternity
But every dawn seems like the last one
With silent cries my life is passing by
Like echoes from the past that slowly fade
If love is a lie, what is all for
Remember every tear I've shed for you
Still you deny what you feel for me
Your eyes can't lie to me
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
The love we share is infected
A passion bittersweet
Dissolving to the music
A romantic act of tragedy
Moan and sigh entwined
Pale and sick and tired
In violet light embedded
Flowers greet the death of the loving
There's a beauty never known before
In this beauty we're deformed and sore
See the pain of a heart laid bare
In the strain of a heart laid bare
Dream of death, presentiment
Under a tragic sky
I close my eyes and dream away
To another year in another time
Illusion veils the face
Sleepwalkeyes of the loving
Features in melancholy
Flowers greet the death of the loving
There's a beauty never known before
In this beauty we're deformed and sore
See the pain of a heart laid bare
In the strain of a heart laid bare
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
i'll end it now, its not helping anyway.
i'll miss you always.
Rachel, thanks for listening to my cryptic bits and pieces.
Unseen, thanks for showing up with stories and words.
I wish I could have followed/been what you guys wanted me to.
Its not in me though.
Love you both, remember.
But then You make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what You got
When all You've got is hurt
----
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
I was clipping this off the "under a tragic sky" line from the words above.
Now, I'm thinking I should've gotten some Fun Lovin' Criminals... (it's you, it's you, it's always been you, it's always been in you...) But hey, you know what? We are what we are! 1/2 the living glory of getting old is (funnily enough)... NOT trying to change so much as learning how to stand up for ourselves. Warts and All (but that's another band, entirely... tee hee). But not just for ourselves, but for ourselves TO ourselves... we being our own worst critics and the like....
You have been my friend when no one else could have possibly understood or appreciated what was going on. You've kept me sane when no other could. This goes way back now, doesn't it? Damn... can it be four years? Holy SMOKES. More than four! You put up with me going on and on and on and on and on and on and ON about myself and my life and my love and my X (even way back before he was my X).
If you ever want to run away from all that... you and yours welcome here. And... just a side note... the desert is wonderful for a girl's hair... you can wear it straight or curly, lol... no worries on humidity or other such meteorological nuisances... rain... shit like that...
So hey... just be kind to yourself. You're all you've got and life is too f'n short to go around bummin cuz you ain't something else. Like I said, I love you. And I wont ever forget yours, either.
Peace, mi jita
Rachel
New Year's Day
All is quiet on New Year's Day.
A world in white gets underway.
I want to be with you, be with you night and day.
Nothing changes on New Year's Day.
On New Year's Day.
I... will be with you again.
I... will be with you again.
Under a blood-red sky
A crowd has gathered in black and white
Arms entwined, the chosen few
The newspaper says, says
Say it's true, it's true...
And we can break through
Though torn in two
We can be one.
I... I will begin again
I... I will begin again.
Oh, oh. Oh, oh. Oh, oh.
Oh, maybe the time is right.
Oh, maybe tonight.
I will be with you again.
I will be with you again.
And so we are told this is the golden age
And gold is the reason for the wars we wage
Though I want to be with you
Be with you night and day
Nothing changes
On New Year's Day
On New Year's Day
On New Year's Day
you know... lol.... in a totally platonic kinda be-with-you way
hugs
What is going on? Email me. I dont come here much anymore, lost my old name and I know its been a while but I want to talk to you. Clear your messages so I can send you my addie.
Steve