delusions are great.....as a hobby

ISN

oftentimes to win us to our harm
the instruments of darkness tell us truths

so many times I've sat and wondered why
psychosis takes me....it makes me
get anxious
just thinking about it
drinking helps....
and dreaming.....
so many times I've sat and wondered why

I can get anxious in about two minutes
I start worrying about the future....
my life of mishaps
and cockups worries me....
too blind to see that worrying is worse
and so many blind-alleys....
my little baby, so defenceless
and I'm such a walking disaster
I tried suicide.....
but living is faster.....than a quick death
a slow one is hellish
then why do I relish
my newfound bliss....my freedom
which is....really
only credited to a God that I have a one-way conversation with....
so many times I've sat and wondered why

I want you to know
that I'm not a ball of malice
or somebody's alice in chains
or somebody's Jesus.....revived
I survive.....by outsourcing my confidence
I find that it's cheaper
I snub the grim reaper
and want to live forever
because I am happy
and healthy
you must understand that my life has been deprivation and sorrow
I want you to know
that I'm careful
about tomorrow
I'm still a bit mad
but that's not too bad
you'd don't understand how awful it was....
and I empathise with them.....
the ones who get fooled into teh false reality.....
I'm well...now
so don't mind me....
I am the most benign creature
(apart from my biblical side vengeance)
delusions are great.....as a hobby....

dunkman

ISN wrote:

the ones who get fooled into teh false reality.....

Just the one spelling mistake dude. Good for a *insert nationality here*. Hehehehe

ISN

hey dood.....r u a teacher....?......I always spell teh 'the' teh.....cos I wanna.....insert 'ur a mongoloid Irish wimmin' bit here.....

dunkman

ISN wrote:

hey dood.....r u a teacher....?......I always spell teh 'the' teh.....cos I wanna.....insert 'ur a mongoloid Irish wimmin' bit here.....

I was, of course, referring to your response in my "bad dream" thread, so therefore r u a teechur? pointing out my bad spelling...tsk the audacity. (this is all lighthearted stuff i presume) har de har

ISN

you presume too much.....it's very serious, my dear.....I've already contacted my lawyers.....in fact I keep one of them on call for times such as these.....and he has told me.....if I drink two bottles of shiraz.....I might well be able to recreate the exact circumstances......I was jus kidding with you b4.......when you wrote that stuff the other day.....but it occured to me that you were quite well-spellt.....until I saw a mistake......but then.....we all make mistakes......I dunno who you are......or anything.....but I'm being friendly........(note absence of smilie)

dunkman

ISN wrote:

when you wrote that stuff the other day.....but it occured to me that you were quite well-spellt.....until I saw a mistake......but then.....we all make mistakes......I dunno who you are......or anything.....but I'm being friendly........(note absence of smilie)

What stuff the other day?

note absence of ........

ISN

I can barely remember, but I think it involved you being a Scottish toerag.....nad me being a lovely Irish woman who'd had a bit of a drink......much teh same as today......or tonight......is it snowing?.....where r u from......teh Highlands.....teh froth of frith?.....mull of kintyre.....(thanx wings)......mull of kintyre oh, me strollin in from this....blah.....my desire....is always to be here oh.....mull of kintyre.....long....etc.....etc.....own up....r u from Glasgow.....hehehheheheeheh......I'm from Donegal mostly but bin living in Australia with my baby (child)......anyway......the boss is after you.....so start we4rkin......

dunkman

ISN wrote:

I can barely remember, but I think it involved you being a Scottish toerag.....nad me being a lovely Irish woman who'd had a bit of a drink......much teh same as today......or tonight......is it snowing?.....where r u from......teh Highlands.....teh froth of frith?.....mull of kintyre.....(thanx wings)......mull of kintyre oh, me strollin in from this....blah.....my desire....is always to be here oh.....mull of kintyre.....long....etc.....etc.....own up....r u from Glasgow.....hehehheheheeheh......I'm from Donegal mostly but bin living in Australia with my baby (child)......anyway......the boss is after you.....so start we4rkin......

I'm from Dumfries and Galloway.... We've had a wee bit o' snow, not as much as the east of UK, it has been blizzard conditions.

Anyway, fuckin Oz will be boiling, so get yer cozzie on and hit the sonofa-beach.

ISN

yeah....I know....Dumfreeze.....Gallows....yeah....it's hot....but not as hot as it was a few weeks ago.....I got my (black and) tan......so now I'm just chillin out......took teh baby to teh beach a few weeks ago......but it's bin mostly jus chillin at home lately......r u at wrok?

Buru

Loved the poem ISN, feels like a printout of a complicated, wondering mind.

ISN

thanx Brian Buru.....I used to have a complicated, wondering mind.....but I decided I wanted to be happy......so it's all zen now.....

Ms. Haiku

ISN wrote:

oftentimes to win us to our harm
the instruments of darkness tell us truths

so many times I've sat and wondered why
psychosis takes me....it makes me
get anxious
just thinking about it
drinking helps....
and dreaming.....
so many times I've sat and wondered why

I can get anxious in about two minutes
I start worrying about the future....
my life of mishaps
and cockups worries me....
too blind to see that worrying is worse
and so many blind-alleys....
my little baby, so defenceless
and I'm such a walking disaster
I tried suicide.....
but living is faster.....than a quick death
a slow one is hellish
then why do I relish
my newfound bliss....my freedom
which is....really
only credited to a God that I have a one-way conversation with....
so many times I've sat and wondered why

I want you to know
that I'm not a ball of malice
or somebody's alice in chains
or somebody's Jesus.....revived
I survive.....by outsourcing my confidence
I find that it's cheaper
I snub the grim reaper
and want to live forever
because I am happy
and healthy
you must understand that my life has been deprivation and sorrow
I want you to know
that I'm careful
about tomorrow
I'm still a bit mad
but that's not too bad
you'd don't understand how awful it was....
and I empathise with them.....
the ones who get fooled into teh false reality.....
I'm well...now
so don't mind me....
I am the most benign creature
(apart from my biblical side vengeance)
delusions are great.....as a hobby....

I felt similarly this morning. I realized that what I should do is write a Bibliobella poem with some conflict because eating-the-extreme-amounts-of-chocolate that I would like to eat would be too fattening. Writing poetry is a good thing in these cases, eh?

Let's see, let's see what evilness will Bibliobella need to combat . . . or is it time to show more of Eva's or Ferdinand's or Paolo's strength . . . hmmmm