disjecta membra

ISNISN Posts: 1,700
edited August 2004 in Poetry, Prose, Music & Art
I've decided to group my efforts together in one thread.....heheheheheheeh....this one......in case anyone was wondering......

so a simple one to start the ball rolling.....

tonight is perfect
much as many things are without seeming so
looking for things to make us feel whole
half suits me
I saw the moon this afternoon
walking home from the shops
I was dressed in red and black
dressed top to toe in black and red
and there in the sky a perfect half
moon hung....so familiar
and watching over me
from now on everything must be halves
like orange halves at hockey
I want everything to be perfectly
halved
I want to be half whole
and wholly half.....my child is my second half
and my round belly attests this
his round cheeks are four with mine
and our big eyes.....are mirrored in each other
I'm half way to heaven
and the rest of the way is downhill

:)
....they're asking me to prove why I should be allowed to stay with my baby in Australia, because I'm mentally ill......and they think I should leave......
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  • :) Indeed!

    "his round cheeks are four with mine
    and our big eyes.....are mirrored in each other
    I'm half way to heaven
    and the rest of the way is downhill"

    I'm wholly impressed but chose this half as my favorite portion of the whole but that's not to say that I'm half impressed by the whole, it's just this half really made the whole thing shine! :)

    Lovely, ISN!
    Forget your perfect offering, there is a crack in everything, that's how the light gets in. - Leonard Cohen
  • BlackSinBlackSin Posts: 83

    and our big eyes.....are mirrored in each other
    I'm half way to heaven
    and the rest of the way is downhill

    Am stunned by these verses... Well done, Weeeell Done!
    I can't be free with what's locked inside of me...
  • I'm looking forward to seeing this thread grow. :)
  • suedesuede Posts: 247
    damn....i might have to resurrect the shoebox ;)
  • anOmisanOmis Posts: 223
    Originally posted by ISN
    I've decided to group my efforts together in one thread.....heheheheheheeh....this one......in case anyone was wondering......

    so a simple one to start the ball rolling.....

    tonight is perfect
    much as many things are without seeming so
    looking for things to make us feel whole
    half suits me
    I saw the moon this afternoon
    walking home from the shops
    I was dressed in red and black
    dressed top to toe in black and red
    and there in the sky a perfect half
    moon hung....so familiar
    and watching over me
    from now on everything must be halves
    like orange halves at hockey
    I want everything to be perfectly
    halved
    I want to be half whole
    and wholly half.....my child is my second half
    and my round belly attests this
    his round cheeks are four with mine
    and our big eyes.....are mirrored in each other
    I'm half way to heaven
    and the rest of the way is downhill

    :)

    was bout time!
    really nice writting
    this poem took my breath away
    ~~dont mind yer make up, just make up yer mind~~

    ~~its better to be hated for who you are than be loved for who you are not~~

    F.ZAPPA
  • I've taken many sips of this poem by reading it many times. It's lovely in a very many ways. :) I'm happy you've got your own thread. It will be a thread I visit often. :)
    "At the touch of love, everyone becomes a poet." --Plato

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  • ISNISN Posts: 1,700
    thank you all for your comments on my peom.....:)..I really never expected people to like it in any way......I just wanted something to start my thread......feel free to post in here your own peoms if you want.....I hope it takes off.....(Suede it's too late for you boy.....I will never write in the Shoebox again!!!!! hehehehe :D....c'mon)
    ....they're asking me to prove why I should be allowed to stay with my baby in Australia, because I'm mentally ill......and they think I should leave......
  • ISN, you are a global institution.... if only we could get you to stop typing dot dot dot ...... and heheheheh... (heheheheheh), then we'd pronounce you Board laureate! (j/k)

    :)
  • ISNISN Posts: 1,700
    I don't want to be Board Laureate.....(hehehehehe).....cos they invariably die soon after they receive that honour......except for Betjeman......who frolicked through life for years more....(anyway....I'll be doing my 'Peter' soon, and there will be plenty of punctuation in that.....enough to make up for at least five posts with dots.....heheheheehehe)
    ....they're asking me to prove why I should be allowed to stay with my baby in Australia, because I'm mentally ill......and they think I should leave......
  • ISNISN Posts: 1,700
    the letter Q is eloQuent
    (it has a little tail)
    wherever I've been
    and wherever I've went
    the Q's there without fail
    I often think Q's quick to write
    but linger on its roundness
    of all the letters, I have found,
    for Q I have a fondness

    if you put u after Q
    and add an I and et
    the simple Q becomes a word
    and the word is Quiet
    what a lovely word!!!!!!

    :)
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  • ISNISN Posts: 1,700
    I want to bathe in ash
    and burn myself alive
    I want to swim in trash
    and cut my fingers five
    away...and throw them on a pile
    I want to die and while
    I'm dying scream
    that this is NOT a dream
    this is real life
    I want to quiet the tornado
    and throw mucous on the pile
    of broken fuk that is my self
    I want to die and scream
    that this is NOT a dream
    or a nightmare
    this is where I learn how to die
    odelay....why this?
    why....do I get spat on...
    treated with disdain
    I would fain die with all the martyrs
    again and again
    I'm so sick of all the thick wide derision
    my vision is to die
    let me die
    I can't go on
    I live in Sydney now!!!
    I'm okay
    I want to sway to sounds of Death
    and Death come easy and come quick
    I'm sick of all the thick wide derision
    I had a vision of hell
    I want to swell on the waves on the tide on the sea of Death
    and stick it to them
    I'm sick of sickness
    and of sadness
    and of life
    I want an end to my misfortune
    and if it is opportune, God, let me die
    ....they're asking me to prove why I should be allowed to stay with my baby in Australia, because I'm mentally ill......and they think I should leave......
  • ISNISN Posts: 1,700
    Moses knowses....whose noses
    are rightly alligned
    if your nose is out of place
    then, my friend, you will find
    that Moses knowses where the roses
    grow among teh reeds....
    cos Moses shows us
    in 'teh book of Noses'...
    apocryphal but kind
    of close to truth
    but the closest truth
    that you'll perceive
    is that Moses' nose is
    very crooked
    but being a prophet
    he would scoff at
    anything profane
    (like snot....aha!!!!!)
    so Moses shows us....
    in 'teh book of Noses'....
    the mystery and the myth
    of snooters.....
    whilst dispelling many
    misconceptions about the fate of the Jewish people
    WHO ALL HAVE BIG NOSES.....
    (according to Moses)

    :D
    ....they're asking me to prove why I should be allowed to stay with my baby in Australia, because I'm mentally ill......and they think I should leave......
  • ISNISN Posts: 1,700
    We all want to be happy....some of us are and some of us aren't....some of us are mean and some of us are kind….but you can be kind and sad…..or happy and mean…..some of us are rich and some of us are poor….back to that later*…..do you have to be young to be happy? Surely when you’re young that’s when you go through the “I’m a fukwit loser” stage at some point…..and all you want to do is be happy….or cool….but some people are cool, but not happy. How about clever? You can be stupid and happy; you can seldom be extremely clever and happy – why is this? Do you have to be fully conscious to be happy, or is it better if you’re a dope? This analysis is based on my musings on madness and the answer to madness – which I think translates well to the answer to the meaning of life.

    To understand the answer to the meaning of life, you will need to have a foundation in madness. Madness is the antithesis of meaning. Henceforth, when you are mad, you are searching for meaning in chaos – madness is an extreme disassociation with reality in a bad way. For those of you who have too much reality for your own liking, try unreality – it will concentrate your minds. In my quest to find the solution to madness and unreality, I decided tonight to accept that reality is bona fide. This is a big leap of faith for a schizophrenic, but something which normal people apparently accept without question. Following on from this decision, if the world is as it seems, then I can accept the little anomalies of madness as blips. This led me to consider that acceptance brings with it relief, and an awareness of feeling happy. (Or is it the other way round; ie. I’m happy, so I can accept the anomalies of madness). Nonetheless, it has come to my attention that as soon as I started believing I was happy, then, in fact, I am happy. I can be happy not knowing the answers to the great philosophical questions of reality and being, because being happy is the answer. I emphasize the word BEING.

    It’s cumulative for me; a learning process. I asked myself what was making me sad, and I eliminated those things. I asked myself what was I lacking, and I added them. This was done through sheer will-power in the face of extraordinary obstacles. My fears have never manifested themselves – hence the quote from Shakespeare (if I’m correct); present fears are *less* than horrible imaginings. Maybe I’m fermenting and this is part of the process, but if you understand what I have just written, you will find that the meaning of life is a process of being happy. (Does this make sense?)

    (*money doesn’t hurt)
    ....they're asking me to prove why I should be allowed to stay with my baby in Australia, because I'm mentally ill......and they think I should leave......
  • ISNISN Posts: 1,700
    bump....I'd like to hear....whether people think this is too simple....and whether or not you think I have explained it properly.....
    ....they're asking me to prove why I should be allowed to stay with my baby in Australia, because I'm mentally ill......and they think I should leave......
  • ISNISN Posts: 1,700
    my son looked in my eye and laughed
    he was the owner of a very big fluffy doggie....
    then he saw his father towering over him
    and his smiles increased

    my son looked in my eye and laughed
    he'd learnt the word for birdie....
    which was 'baddam'.....
    he heard a noise.....
    I said.....'that's dada'.....

    my son looked in my eye and laughed
    I'd called him silly billy
    amused, he lay back on his elbows....
    his father heard him laughing....
    (and smiled)....

    my son looked in my eye and laughed
    his mother is positively raving
    he thinks it's funny....(she slaps her thighs)...
    we need his father to keep us straight....
    ....they're asking me to prove why I should be allowed to stay with my baby in Australia, because I'm mentally ill......and they think I should leave......
  • ISNISN Posts: 1,700
    but think it is december oh what fun
    don't think about the cold or lack of sun
    just make ye snowballs and prepare to fight
    with carrots on your noses....
    and frosty pink posies
    and ooooopppps we all fall down

    but think it is december oh what fun
    the knitting season's over....all is done
    the roasting of the turkey went quite well...
    and so did all the toasting
    and the hell!!!! of seeing granny
    like lazarus....it is december
    oh, lucky us....

    we went to midnight mass....
    walked up the hill...
    the presents all were tumbled
    willy-nill
    beneath the tree
    a conifer from Spain!!!!
    but think, it is december once again....

    december comes and puddings are alight
    december comes and all siblings must fight
    december comes it makes me feel so good
    I wish december would and should and could
    make everyone's little hopes
    come true....and dreams of december
    make you happy too!!!!
    ....they're asking me to prove why I should be allowed to stay with my baby in Australia, because I'm mentally ill......and they think I should leave......
  • rubyruby Posts: 103
    I enjoyed these both, ISN. You can feel the joy in both of them, like they're alive (the poems).
  • ISNISN Posts: 1,700
    thanks ruby....we had a great first Father's Day....:)
    ....they're asking me to prove why I should be allowed to stay with my baby in Australia, because I'm mentally ill......and they think I should leave......
  • rubyruby Posts: 103
    ISN, may it be the first of a lifetime's worth :)
    xo
  • ISNISN Posts: 1,700
    incredible that life should lead to this
    a feeling of content and constant bliss
    a certainty of riches of the heart
    and no more shall we part

    crucified through waves of blood I see
    that I am nothing and that he is he
    and as I rest assured of peace and part
    of him....no more shall we part

    and no more shall we part
    not now....but now is it
    it is all now....the present
    is the thing
    I sing for life and all through life I sing
    no more shall we part
    ....they're asking me to prove why I should be allowed to stay with my baby in Australia, because I'm mentally ill......and they think I should leave......
  • ISNISN Posts: 1,700
    paranoia is a fine art
    it isn't easy to be paranoid
    you have to be a categorist
    you put strange coincidences in categories
    and assemble them like lego
    you fit together a jigsaw of
    disparate pieces
    and all the time
    scared out of your brain
    tell yourself it's not real

    then there's delusions
    similar to paranoia
    somebody says something
    you latch onto it
    you read something somewhere
    or hear a song
    it sounds like your life -
    they're watching you!!!!!
    oh the fear
    your imagination takes you to
    scenes of mutilation and torture
    with satanists following you
    and you find that yes, you are the
    whore of Babylon
    or Israel himself
    and all the little details match
    you spend a lot of time
    figuring out what's 'really going on'...
    you saw them there...
    and they followed you....
    you overheard somebody
    trying to catch what they said
    now you wear your headphones
    the bushes said 'yes'
    when you worried about self-esteem
    and you peered into their verdant trap

    you dream of vampires
    you're slightly prescient
    you know that you cause accidents
    to people you don't like
    it's not your fault - you're mad

    psychosis is a teacher
    it teaches you to be afraid
    you are buffeted and tossed
    on waves
    psychosis is a leach
    it steals your vitality
    you are immortal
    and you are always going to suffer
    because you are crazy
    you're not lazy
    you get sad
    and can't do anything
    cos you're crying
    you suffer more than anyone
    so you must be close to God
    you've been to Hell
    (pretty bad place)
    you don't know why you ended up being
    mad - it's not fair
    but you're so scared
    it scares you....
    psychosis is a break from life
    it's death
    it's torture
    and you remember
    but you live
    cos you have strength
    and that's why
    they're after you
    ....they're asking me to prove why I should be allowed to stay with my baby in Australia, because I'm mentally ill......and they think I should leave......
  • ISNISN Posts: 1,700
    I got blotto
    waiting for the lotto
    and then I didn't win
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