soft mewling sounds.....

ISN

my lawyer screwed up
it's not my fault
I won't lose my baby
but I spent today
making soft mewling sounds
thinking about the torture that I'm enduring
my baba walks aroudn teh house saying 'dada'
when I correct him and say 'mama'.....
he waves....'bye bye'.....

my lawyer screwed up
it's not my fault
he made a mistake....
and isn't charging me for it....
which is a relief....
since I've only just gotten the go-ahead
that the nurse is going to write a medical report for free
for legal aid.....

it's so distressing....
to know that
the lawyer screwed up.....

sometimes I think if my life was a film
I would be Neo in teh Matrix.....
everything's weird, but somehow knowing
it's okay....

and it always is....
it was very dramatic....I didn't have anyone
to call....
my lawyer wrote to me....and apologised for screwing up.....
I called Michael and pondered getting back together
but he was as nasty to me as ever....
and so I just wept....badly......baldly.....boldly.....

it's all so personal.....I don't think you'd understand
my lawyer screwed up.....today.....

ruby

(I don't like the ten character rule as it means I have to say something stupid when all I wanted to do is show you the sad little purple face. xo)