poems 'n such.....

ISN

this is a record of mccreadyisgod's attempt to embroil me last night.....it came out of the blue, and I don't know why he picked on me - I definitely wasn't expecting it.......these are the emails b/w us last night......I jus wanna quiet life.......I never had any contact with him before.......but for some reason he decided to single me out.......and embroil me in some game he's playing.....well here ya go.......ah, yes.....and then he gets all sarcy with me.....what a charmer.....hehehehehee

MIG

I wrote a poem on here, was waiting for your feedback. Figured you'd get a kick out of it, at least...

Where've you been?

me....

yes, I am totally....hehehehe....yeah....what was that peom.....I think I might have seen it.....I was ya know doin stuff....(mostly not doing stuff)......let me know what the poem was......so I can read it.....I've been 'resting'.....heheheheh.....work, ya know.....I've gotta go look for that poem now.....bin working.....earning the olde bacon.......so, and, how are you......I haven't heard from you in ages......I was wondering why you didn't answer any of my calls.....ya know what I mean

MIG

It was titled: {ov-}

You know me and titles.

me.....

I'm reading it right now.....if ya know what I mean

MIG

I do know what you mean. Whaddya think? I could probably gather all my poems together into a short collection, and include that as the coda.

me....

it's you.....I remember your prose piece....and the girl.....Stacy......I liked that one......but I hope you're not making decisions based on advice from here......I told you to grab her and kiss her.....and......stuff......how you doin? do you feel better now? jus asking, if ya know what I mean.....thanks for writing to me.....I got a shock!!!!

MIG

I remember that, yes. And you're not the only person to hit me with that advice. But no, I'm not taking BBS advice for gospel. Hell, I'm not assertive enough to just take a girl and grab her and kiss her. I just came to the realization that I can't allow my infatuation with someone control me like that. I was feeling worse and worse with every passing day, and it was all because she didn't love me back. It sucks, and hurts, but ultimately I can't do that to myself. If she can't love me back, can't return my feelings, she'll miss out on what I have to offer, but maybe find someone where it goes both ways. And so can I. I know I love her more than anyone else I've ever known, but still... one-way love is painful and tragic.

So, I was driving on Saturday, along Flathead Lake (the biggest freshwater lake west of the Great Lakes) with my windows down, the sun was out, it was warm, felt like spring, and I realized I was actually happy for the first time in a few months. And I called her to tell her that, and she didn't seem to care. And I realized the whole thing was stupid, and things've been better since. And it takes a lot of effort not to fall apart, but I'm working on it.

*wipes tears off your shoulder* ...sorry about that...

me.....

you have only hit my radar in teh last few weeks, and I don't remember all your poems.....but......I do remember......your problem....

me....

I was really impressed by your honesty, and by your sensitivity which aren't typical male attributes.....and I was also impressed by your skill in writing......in getting across what you're feeling.....in really ya know....communicating.....and I could understand your desperation when I read that......as I've been there.......and I'm always getting myself into 'situations'.....but really what I was most impressed by was your ability to love someone so much.....I mean a girl......but now, I'm relieved that you're happy.....and I know you're a hopeless romantic......and I hope life provides you with all the romance you crave

MIG

I appreciate the sentiment...

However, romance for guys like me seems to be more of a handicap than anything. This last one was literally crippling at times. Really messed up my head. Some of my female friends think/thought it was cute. I just felt sick, mostly.

And I have a painful sense of honesty. I hide nothing.

me.....

me too.....I hide nothing.....and it's very rare to find anyone who appreciates that.....and who cares anyway whether anyone appreciates it.....it's jus the way we are....and....it's very rare for a guy not to be a complete bastard.....and sometimes it's.....crippling.....I think I relate to guys who are either overtly honest, or whom I can read.....but now that you're happy.....whatja gonna do? don't fall in love too much.....I promised myself I wouldn't say I was 'in love' until I was actually really in love.....it's so easy to say it........now that you've got summer ahead an all.....what are you gonna do? how old are you.....?

MIG

I'm going to go back to my hometown and work for my parents' business, like I've done for 12 years straight. It's a typical summer job, but at least the pay is good.

I'm an ancient and cynical 24. ALMOST 25. I'm practically dead. No hope for me.

me.....

yeah right.....no hope for you.....you're just what we need......

MIG

Yeah, well, what's your story? I get the impression from some vague hints that there's more to you than most people on here.

me....

it's nice of you to say, but.....I'm basically a con artist....heheheheheh......I don't know where you're coming from.......but I somehow think you're attaching some kind of meaning to something I've said.....and, if so, rightly......I scarcely let a word pass my lips without being checked......and I say what I mean......but I don't think I'm any better than anyone else.....I really think the people on here are great, and it's quite rare to get such a good bunch of people.....I definitely wouldn't promote myself more than anyone else, although I do laud it up sometimes......but, you, you've been here a long time......and you seem very confident.....why are you writing to me? are you Jewish......? heheheheh....seriously.....I don't even understand why you're writing to me.......

MIG

Not sure if I get the Jewish reference...

You just seem like the kind of person I'd like to have coffee with once a week. I get gut feelings about people sometimes. I'm rarely wrong. My gut says you're cool. Maybe not Justin Timberlake cool, but man-on-the-street cool.

me.....

yeah.....I'm pretty cool......and pretty strung-up too.....a bit crazy......and in a good way......but yeah.....I jus don know that much about you......you only really registered with me when you wrote that short piece about Stacy......before that.....you were pretty much off the map......I like the way your thread is going.....if ya know what I mean......I gotta go ta bed soon......sleep ya know.......but mebbe we can get to know each other a bit.....if that doesn't sound dumb........write 2me 2moro.......about stuff and other stuff.....ya know......what's your real name?

mine's Catherine......

MIG

Wow.

"Stacy" is actually Katie. And my first girlfriend was Kate.

Maybe I just have a thing for the name and it's derivatives.

Anyways, if MIG isn't good enough, then Dave works too.

me....

okay......Dave it is.....seeing as I love the name David.......(phone call).......I'm surprised you find anything interesting in what I write......although I always intend to be interesting.......I've gotta read some of the stuff you wrote......maybe you can write some more poetry......do you like my stuff? some of my stuff?

MIG

I like stuff that I don't think about, just react to. Your stuff generally falls into that category. Some poetry is like a slow poison, others like a pipe wrench to the base of the skull. I prefer the blunt weapon every time.

me....

my dreams are crazy......I have 2go 2 bed now and commit myself to teh land of nod......and I'll be shocked and coddled in my dreams.......I love being asleep......and these wonderful dreams......they're so precious......I love dreaming......I'm going to bed......I'll talk to you 2moro or sometime.......night sweet stuff.......:)

MIG

It's been a pleasure, truly.

Colorful dreams to you.

me....

Hi MIG,

I don't know what to make of yesterday, all's I can say is, I'm not really looking for any kind of relationship with anyone.......I'm very happy with my life.....I like reading your stuff and commenting on it......but that's as far as it goes......I don't know you, and I don't wanna start some kind of tormented relationship with someone......so we'll jus leave it the way it was.....okay? hehehehehehe......we're both happy - so jus concentrate on the poetry.....I was so surprised when you wrote to me, cos I hardly know who you are......but now I'll read your stuff with a bit of extra attention......

Cath