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Whether to have the kitchen mat in the bathroom
or the bathroom mat in the kitchen.
Wondering how long fifty tea-light candles will last
(I lit five for you, because I loved you
when you came over with the baby,
and I thought you might want me back).
Thinking I have to add
'send Clarissa's present' to my list,
and the dream about a publican
hiding two fifty dollar notes in a pot of soil
('what, no seeds?' I said)
and then I think my baby's savings will grow with mine
but although his love for his father grows daily,
he's poured poison on my love for him.
His father is as rude and distant from me now
as he was close and kind to me before,
and it makes me feel lonely knowing that
I can't love him anymore.
I have to stop loving him
because I can't abide this form of punishment
as expert as I am on torture, this
one's not for me.
And I still love him,
even though I'm going to deny it
from now on.
or the bathroom mat in the kitchen.
Wondering how long fifty tea-light candles will last
(I lit five for you, because I loved you
when you came over with the baby,
and I thought you might want me back).
Thinking I have to add
'send Clarissa's present' to my list,
and the dream about a publican
hiding two fifty dollar notes in a pot of soil
('what, no seeds?' I said)
and then I think my baby's savings will grow with mine
but although his love for his father grows daily,
he's poured poison on my love for him.
His father is as rude and distant from me now
as he was close and kind to me before,
and it makes me feel lonely knowing that
I can't love him anymore.
I have to stop loving him
because I can't abide this form of punishment
as expert as I am on torture, this
one's not for me.
And I still love him,
even though I'm going to deny it
from now on.
....they're asking me to prove why I should be allowed to stay with my baby in Australia, because I'm mentally ill......and they think I should leave......
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