corridors

ISNISN Posts: 1,700
edited October 2005 in Poetry, Prose, Music & Art
people pass;
strangers,
fumbling their greetings
shy and reticent.....
babies scream
with each bump of the stairs
their piercing whimpers resound
the light is on for 2 minutes
exactly, and you can hear
the button click
once you're safe inside
mormons come and go
and people want you to switch
energy companies at the door
you fob them off with
impatient platitudes
I'm happy with my provider, thanks.....
big parcels arrive in the morning
when you're still sleeping
but nobody steals them
even though they're left on the step....
it's safe round here......
the smell of perfume
lingers and wafts into the walls
the smell of perfume
lingers
perfume (any brand)
it's all the same
flies get trapped inside
on the stairwell,
and beat their staccato death
out on the windows of the
street doors.....
you park your pram in the
'meter room'....
nobody steals it.....
it's safe round here.....
there's a mat at every door
wirey and walked-on
mats, and mats and mats....
there's lots of mats....
the first floor light
blinks sometimes...
but they fixed it
I think
the corridor, the hall, the stairs....
they're all chilly
like the flats...
open the street doors
and walk out into the warmth
....they're asking me to prove why I should be allowed to stay with my baby in Australia, because I'm mentally ill......and they think I should leave......
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  • twin2twin2 Posts: 894
    I like this one. I had a very real mental picture in my head with each line I read. Where I live is very "safe" as well. We leave our keys in the car and no one steals it.
  • ISNISN Posts: 1,700
    safe is good....I don't miss my dangerous life...sometimes I wonder where the danger went...and I wonder about me and my son's security.......my temporary safety scares me.....cos maybe it'll be EVEN WORSE next time.......I'm such a coward........I can't face psychosis like a real man......I cower......I challenge anyone to face it......what is this world like.......doesn't anyone else have to deal with psychosis.....? and start getting suspicious when things turn quiet....I'm finished with all that........I'm a recovering psychotic mother.....god help us all!!!!
    ....they're asking me to prove why I should be allowed to stay with my baby in Australia, because I'm mentally ill......and they think I should leave......
  • twin2twin2 Posts: 894
    ISN wrote:
    safe is good....I don't miss my dangerous life...sometimes I wonder where the danger went...and I wonder about me and my son's security.......my temporary safety scares me.....cos maybe it'll be EVEN WORSE next time.......I'm such a coward........I can't face psychosis like a real man......I cower......I challenge anyone to face it......what is this world like.......doesn't anyone else have to deal with psychosis.....? and start getting suspicious when things turn quiet....I'm finished with all that........I'm a recovering psychotic mother.....god help us all!!!!


    Well, my goodness. I hope things will stay nice and safe for you and your little son. I choose to hit my problems (whatever they may be at the time) head on, not that it is easy, I'm just the type that likes to get it over with. Faith is a very powerful and good thing and I hope you use it. It's always there for the taking and doesn't cost a thing. Think positive. It will work out.
  • ISNISN Posts: 1,700
    thanks......honey bunny.....it's all good!!!! (right now) it's actually better than I ever dreamt it could be......Thank My Gracious God.......thank you my Gracious God......!!!!!! without waxing religious.......I am indebted to a pleasant, peaceful, jew-loving, gentile-loving.....tolerant......peaceful (did I mention that).......I am inextricably tied to my God.....it's a matter of vision and nihilism........I see hope everywhere.......I see hope in the weeds in the cracks of the pavement.......I see RENEWED hope in every word Being ever says......I guess I'm a hope junkie.......yeah well I guess I'm not convincing anyone to believe in my God, but I guess if they knew me......and knew my rebellious nature......my recalcitrant nature......my errant streak.......my otherness......my alienation.......my strangeness.......otherness......weirdness......they would.....ya know they would........jus understand :) (that's it from him......and that's it from me.....from us......whoooooaaaaa......hey ISN......you guys should be telling me to shut up......but I won't !!!!!0
    ....they're asking me to prove why I should be allowed to stay with my baby in Australia, because I'm mentally ill......and they think I should leave......
  • twin2twin2 Posts: 894
    ISN wrote:
    thanks......honey bunny.....it's all good!!!! (right now) it's actually better than I ever dreamt it could be......Thank My Gracious God.......thank you my Gracious God......!!!!!! without waxing religious.......I am indebted to a pleasant, peaceful, jew-loving, gentile-loving.....tolerant......peaceful (did I mention that).......I am inextricably tied to my God.....it's a matter of vision and nihilism........I see hope everywhere.......I see hope in the weeds in the cracks of the pavement.......I see RENEWED hope in every word Being ever says......I guess I'm a hope junkie.......yeah well I guess I'm not convincing anyone to believe in my God, but I guess if they knew me......and knew my rebellious nature......my recalcitrant nature......my errant streak.......my otherness......my alienation.......my strangeness.......otherness......weirdness......they would.....ya know they would........jus understand :) (that's it from him......and that's it from me.....from us......whoooooaaaaa......hey ISN......you guys should be telling me to shut up......but I won't !!!!!0


    I am truly glad things are going so well for you.
  • ISNISN Posts: 1,700
    and I really feel the warmth of your sincere sentiments.......and they are a boon to me.......I jus want you to know that you made me feel proud of us......(you, me, and them) cos I did feel that.....I felt what you said.....thanks :) (okay, you can shuddup now!!!! heheheheheeh).......I love this beautiful life!!!!!
    ....they're asking me to prove why I should be allowed to stay with my baby in Australia, because I'm mentally ill......and they think I should leave......
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