My Mother.....

ISN

has a new grandchild.....
and suddenly mine doesn't matter.....
because she gave me away......
and fortfeited every grandchild of mine......
she only cares about her
'real children'.....
I'm her first child......
and I'm crying....
my mother doesn't really love
me.......
that kind of makes me sick......
to have two mothers who don't love you......
is the icing on the cake......
but when I know that my mother doesn't love my son......
then I get angry

Righteous Jammer

very sad...and so honest

ISN

well, I really feel like keeping my baby away from someone who has betrayed us so much......she's so fake!!!! my half-brother is having a baby.....and she's so excited!!!! and she wants me to take my baby over to Ireland to meet them....but she hasn't even told Eamonn that I'm his SISTER....so wtf???? she is such a coward........he's 23 years old......I've known him since he was four.....

ISN

Look, who would not be excited with a new baby in the family? And she does not forget you: she wants you to go there with your baby so she can have those she loves together, isn't that good good news?

What she has not said may need time, or may need the people to be acyually there...we are all different with our strenghts and our weaknesses,
all fathers all mothers and all children are doomed to disapoint those who love them sometimes, and I know what I mean...

after all that happens we learn to be more tolerant and take people as they are, and we become more modest as that includes us...

there is a time to overcome the illusion of an ideal image we had of us and them when we were little babys...

I know, but sometimes ya jus need a Mom......ta love ya......and ta love yer son.......we all forgive her.....now, really she should understand her responsibilities.......which are for her 'real' children and her 'natural' ones.....I want my baby's grandmother to love him.......I don't want him to go thru the same shit I went thru......capish.....?

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violet ray

sometimes i think its really too bad we're not allowed to choose our families...

as long as you love your son the way i can see you do and he knows this, he will be fine. for you, its hard to let go of old resentments (added to new resentments)... i've been in somewhat the same place (different situations, but same type of thing) with my son, i know how you're feeling and i wish you both the best.

ISN

thanks Violet Ray.....I just purged onto the computer totally off my head on wine last night, after a conversation with my natural mother, and just ranted...the problem is insecurity......I don't know what the answer is.....I guess just to be a good mother myself, like you said......