the part-time mother....

ISN

the endless tears...
the gift of the gab....
the frozen love
the inconsequential male.....
the unloving husband
the absent father....
the missed baby......
the written word
the tasty absurd
the endless death
the endless breadth
of days without child
the mad versus mild
the crazy and loving
the endless desiring
for baby with toys.......
the no messing with boys.....
they are such bastards......
and I'm only a woman....
the searching through books
the less spoken spooks
the ghost in the rafters
forever I'm after
a man who's not weakly
the shut up don't speakly to mi madre like that
the forever twat
writing forever poems
about all her problems
and drowning in tears
and accusing queers....
but jus wanting her baby
if not now, then maybe
tomorrow, if it suits you
I'll homage Canute you.....
but I'm not so passive
indeed I am massive
and all your thronged army
will never disarm me....
I rule by the heart
and truth,
and larry forsooth
I know you're a liar.....
so unfortun'ly squire.....
you'll die at my hand.....
before I reach Ireland.....
and verrily I say to thee
if you weren't prey to me.....
you'd die for some other's persuasion
you are a great oak
and you always will be
but unless you can counter a stetsun or a stilby.....
you'll remain without brains
unfortunate lad....
it's only your fault that you started
contesting against me.....
when I've countered plenty....
and you're jus a scratch in me book
so I say to you dearly
you won't catch me early
so you better jus give up now,
and give me my baby
without no or maybe.......
or I will completely devour
you

depopulationINC

wow, pretty intense

are you going through a cusody battle?

ISN

yes I am......and I miss my baby....I want my baby...I worry about him....

depopulationINC

well, I wish you the best of luck....and for what its worth, thanks for sharing your emotion

ISN

I don't know whether my emotions are worth sharing.....but I believe in Justice......and Truth........and people have wronged me......everyone......all the time.......and I'm sitting here thinking of appropriate rhymes......and cying like a child......and that's life.....I guess you could say.....and that is death too, to be denied like an animal.......and to be treated like one......well, I guess all our ideas of Justice nad Truth were just ideas.....and the hopeless romantics die....quickly and soon......and young......but I'm gonna live and fight for my baby........Torin José Gonzalez.......because I love him.......

depopulationINC

believe me, I have as much apathy towrds society as pretty much anyone, but you seem like a genuine person. You seem honest and open, and I have to have faith that in a messed up world, that still means something. I guess what I am trying to say is that I think things will work out for you. I imagine that means nothing to you, as you do not know me.

Keep your head high, let the people dearest to you know how important they are to you, fight for what is yours and what you know is trully right, offer a hand to those in need, and you will win.

Im rambling...best wishes to you

depopulationINC

and btw, your emotions are always worth sharing. you always have an open ear in me anyways

ISN

depop....I like on my own......I never see a soul......from morning to night......I'm truly alone.....I work on the intahweb......and I get to see my baby 3 or 4 times a week.......I guess you could understand why I never trusted his father.........if somebody gave me a soft pillow to take away all my problems........then as long
as me n Torin were sleeping on teh pillow, I might accept.......I have bin cruelly wronged all my life......and I worry about my baby

Ali

I'm sorry ISN...if you need to vent,PM me....


allison:(

violet ray

depopulationINC wrote:

and btw, your emotions are always worth sharing. you always have an open ear in me anyways

ditto

and good luck

ISN

thanks Alli sweetie pie and violet ray and depop.....I watched the film Sylvia (Plath) that night, and I was already stressed-out......so I guess I took things about her life on board.......and, yes, guys, you will be happy to know that since that night, I have decided not to get so tearful and upset about the situation any more......not to cry buckets and scream and stuff.......because it'll make me weaker, and I need to be strong to get my baby back.......so you will see a new me who is not so erratic and moody......and crazy......(hopefully) it's a stratagem........but they say, in chess you have to kill the queen......and that can be a tricky business

depopulationINC

ISN wrote:

not so erratic and moody......and crazy......(hopefully) it's a stratagem........but they say, in chess you have to kill the queen......and that can be a tricky business

ahh yes, but as I say, there is something to be said for messing with ones mind. always play with their minds. keep em guessing. being strong is one thing, but keeping it all built up is another. yes, you must be strong for your son, but ya also gotta vent...venting = good, as basic laws of physics show an increasingly pressurized system will eventually explode

ISN

I know depop.....it's so weird......I am like a kettle that boils over when I have a nervous breakdown, but my doctor thinks the pattern is broken, and everything indicates that is the case

depopulationINC

my doctor thinks I am a phsycopath


he must die


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