midnight ramble

pacifier

I hate the waiting
I hate the waiting
sometimes I wan't to slit my wrist
but I'm too much of a hopeful coward
I hate the waiting
I hate the waiting
Sometimes I want to cut myself
just to bleed the truth
I hate the waiting
I hate the waiting
Not a scar on my body
made by a guilty hand
but I hate the waiting
I hate the waiting

waiting

twin2

This is very sad and the following disturbed me in a big way.

"sometimes I wan't to slit my wrist
but I'm too much of a hopeful coward"

I guess being a hopeful coward is a good thing.

pacifier

but at least there is this...

Not a scar on my body
made by a guilty hand

yes being a hopeful coward in this situation is a good thing. Sometimes you just need a break from life and you don't know how to get it. Like most people, I'm sure, sometimes I just want to go to sleep and wait for the next phase of my life to begin. I hate the waiting. But I know if you're patient you will look back on times like this and realise you had to go through them to get to the good places you were going.

PS in my head hopeless coward came to mind, then I realised hopeless was anything but the truth, you must still have so much hope if you don't actually want to go through with it. and that is a good thing.