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leavin here

pacifierpacifier Posts: 1,009
edited April 2006 in Poetry, Prose, Music & Art
I won’t be here much longer
I’ll be leavin soon
I don’t know where I’m headin
Without you….

And if I could take you with me
I’d make you stay
I’d make you stay
Where the sun shines on your face
Gathers wrinkles as you age
And fades away

And for all you’ve given to me
I’ll return it to you
Shine it down upon you
Everyday

I said I’d never leave you
I’ll never leave you
I have to leave
You have to stay
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  • ISNISN Posts: 1,700
    that's very touching, but why can't you stay?
    ....they're asking me to prove why I should be allowed to stay with my baby in Australia, because I'm mentally ill......and they think I should leave......
  • pacifierpacifier Posts: 1,009
    ISN wrote:
    that's very touching, but why can't you stay?

    I can stay...for now... was just having sads thoughts about when people die young from an illness and have to leave the ones they love behind. Now that I have someone I want to spend the rest of my life with I sometimes get paranoid about something like that happening. I was just doing the dishes today and the thought came into my head and the line about "if I could take you with me..." came into my head. and it felt like the obvious thing to follow would be "...I would", because you would want to be with the one you love, but the ending that came into my mind was "....I would make you stay" because what you really want is what is best for the ones you love, and you want them to live a long and happy life. But it was just sad and sticking in my head and the words were coming out, so i just sat down and wrote.
  • ISNISN Posts: 1,700
    well, that makes sense (sorry, I wanted to write more, but my brain has gone walkabout cos my psychiatrist asked me to type out my psychiatric history for him so he could send a report to Immigration, and it's totally stressed me out.....I had a lot of work, and the baby, and then I had to try to remember all that shit - I'm sorry I can't write any sense at the moment - but I bet that doesn't stop me from writing shit......heheeheheheh - you know how it is)

    but the main thing is that I experienced the poem on a certain level, and it touched my heart.......:)
    ....they're asking me to prove why I should be allowed to stay with my baby in Australia, because I'm mentally ill......and they think I should leave......
  • pacifierpacifier Posts: 1,009
    ISN wrote:
    well, that makes sense (sorry, I wanted to write more, but my brain has gone walkabout cos my psychiatrist asked me to type out my psychiatric history for him so he could send a report to Immigration, and it's totally stressed me out.....I had a lot of work, and the baby, and then I had to try to remember all that shit - I'm sorry I can't write any sense at the moment - but I bet that doesn't stop me from writing shit......heheeheheheh - you know how it is)

    but the main thing is that I experienced the poem on a certain level, and it touched my heart.......:)

    Thanks. No need to explain. Sounds like you need a break. You should tell that brain of yours to stop walking and come back and get some rest.

    Don't you think you oughta rest?
    Don't you think you oughta lay your head down?
    Don't you think you want to sleep?
    Don't you think you oughta lay your head down tonight?


    Don't you think you've done enough?
    Oh, don't you think you've got enough, well maybe..
    You don't think there's time to stop?
    There's time enough for you to lay your head down, tonight, tonight


    Let it wash away
    All those yesterdays
  • ISNISN Posts: 1,700
    there's still time to e-scape.....about one of the only things that kept me going when I was in London, as well as a song by Gomez......but I might have done that Houdini trick now, so it all should get better......pacifier, it's pretty much a 100% better, but I jus got into such a stress-habit......I'm totally wired again, cos I did too many weird things today, but here (Australia) is peaceful......I can relax.......but sometimes, it bites me.....heheheheheh?

    I'm so freaked, cos I go on here to relax, and I know I'm gonna get all crazy tonight......it's so fast.....when you're crazy :)

    I apologize cos my brain is in over-load......and I jus wanted to write about yoru peom.......which I liked :)......etc
    ....they're asking me to prove why I should be allowed to stay with my baby in Australia, because I'm mentally ill......and they think I should leave......
  • pacifierpacifier Posts: 1,009
    It's all good. We all have our stressful days. Enjoy the rest of the night. relax, unwind and let it all wash away.
  • ISNISN Posts: 1,700
    not so easy.....but I'll try.....I've already got a spring in my step since I went to the infamous shops to pick up the supplies.....oh boy, I'm screwed....sorry to hijack your thread......
    ....they're asking me to prove why I should be allowed to stay with my baby in Australia, because I'm mentally ill......and they think I should leave......
  • pacifierpacifier Posts: 1,009
    Just reading through some old stuff and saw this one. I thought I'd give it a chance for someone other than ISN to respond, and I'd give those who miss ISN a little something to remember her.
  • twin1twin1 Posts: 902
    This made me sad. It reminded me of the people I have lost to death and the conversation in the thread reminded me of my ex who has bipolar. It reminded me how many times I tried to cheer him up and how his thoughts would race - one minute a genius going 100 miles a hour in the manic state and the next practically a vegetable in depression. It is draining for everyone involved. The saddest thing is knowing there is nothing you can do but try to be supportive and patient. Watching someone you love who never seems to know how to find peace is heartbreaking. It makes you wish that somehow you could give it to them. Your poem is good, produced alot of emotions for me.
    Our love must not be just words, but True Love, which shows itself in action,
    No one needs a smile more than someone who fails to give one,
    After you die...you know how to LIVE!
  • FinsburyParkCarrotsFinsburyParkCarrots Seattle, WA Posts: 12,223
    Cath (ISN) is still alive and feisty as fook, last time I checked on that eejit's forum she uses . She ain't deaded. That reminds me. I should give her a shout sometime. Pain in the arse though she is. :p:D
  • pacifierpacifier Posts: 1,009
    FinsburyParkCarrots wrote:
    Cath (ISN) is still alive and feisty as fook, last time I checked on that eejit's forum she uses . She ain't deaded. That reminds me. I should give her a shout sometime. Pain in the arse though she is. :p:D

    I didn't mean to sound like she had passed on, just passed on from the pj board, and I have to say I don't really wander much on the net, I have a few places I look at and I don't really add to that unless I am studying or something. I don't want to add to many regular places I visit on the web or I would never get off this damn computer, so I don't think I will see ISN again, but I hope she is going well and that everything has worked out for her.
  • FinsburyParkCarrotsFinsburyParkCarrots Seattle, WA Posts: 12,223
    pacifier wrote:
    I didn't mean to sound like she had passed on, just passed on from the pj board, and I have to say I don't really wander much on the net, I have a few places I look at and I don't really add to that unless I am studying or something. I don't want to add to many regular places I visit on the web or I would never get off this damn computer, so I don't think I will see ISN again, but I hope she is going well and that everything has worked out for her.

    I know. :)
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