child

pacifier

I'm sorry I wasn't enough
sorry I made it so tough for you
that you had to do what you had to do
(what you didn't want to do)
you said you didn't want to go
so why didn't you stay?
(for me)
[because I'm not enough]
for you
I cried the day you left
must have been deaf
didn't hear you say goodbye
didn't hear you tell me why
coward crept into the night
out of sight
never to return
(left the child burnt)
adults in the street
we meet
now give me your excuse
why couldn't I have you
why did you leave me all alone
let me think it was my fault?
he opens his mouth tho speak
says he couldn't cope with me
says my dads another bloke
and he could never love me
the way I love him
never needed me
the way I needed him
the way I need...
I was a burden on his love for her
a reminder of another hurt he couldn't bare
a child for who he couldn't care
a secret that was never shared
well all I knew was YOU
you were my truth
and I was nothing
(nothing you could love)
never enough
never enough for my father's love
because I am nothing
(and for all he was
he is nothing to me now)

twin2

That was very sad.

depopulationINC

yes, very sad, nice poem, but sad

pacifier

came to me when I was waiting outside of class one day. The teacher was 10mins late so I wrote it while I waited.

I guess it's a tinsy bit from life in the fact that when I was 19 I got told my dad might not be my dad, but he was always there and always loved me (although I'm sure it's hard to love a child as your own if you don't know if they are or not), so that leaving part is all made up, kind of based on what I thought it would be like if it got too hard to deal with.

justam

I also think this would be very sad if it was true. Luckily though, I think it's not uncommon for people to love other people's children as their own.