Beautiful Distraction
pearljoy
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I mourn you as if I lost you to death,
I need you back into my head, deeper into my heart,
I traded my soul for the institution instead.
My essence seeps a blue as my eyes view a substance of black
The present love is a receding substitute to the magic you and I had
And so I remain locked away
I only open up for those perfect thoughts of you and yesterday.
Beautiful Distraction
I miss your light my regret is excruciating almost all the time
I let you go to begin a new life
As I lie here with him I die for you, nothing absolutely nothing feels right.
I’m deadened by our disappearance
I now realize My better half I can’t get you back
Frightened from the present, terrified I lost the past
Your image is inscribed into my unconsciousness state of mind
As I lay with him thoughts of you spin. I must rehearse his name on the outside and yet I dream your lovemaking over again on the inside.
I am a mosaic mess, my spirit like a broken glass
Thick red blood floods every dream of happiness.
One more dark night I beg for the answers into the light.
If only he would give me an excuse to leave my life.
A beautiful chance went away when I took on this reasonability.
Choices turned into sacrifice; how do I turn it all back? I’m not a star in the sky
Beautiful love was a distraction from the pain, from the sin, from him. I missed the real message I ignored the obvious sign, My Beautiful distraction was meant by design.
I was given what most women are denied -- A real love -- A beautiful Man an incredible distraction I released with my own hands.
I need you back into my head, deeper into my heart,
I traded my soul for the institution instead.
My essence seeps a blue as my eyes view a substance of black
The present love is a receding substitute to the magic you and I had
And so I remain locked away
I only open up for those perfect thoughts of you and yesterday.
Beautiful Distraction
I miss your light my regret is excruciating almost all the time
I let you go to begin a new life
As I lie here with him I die for you, nothing absolutely nothing feels right.
I’m deadened by our disappearance
I now realize My better half I can’t get you back
Frightened from the present, terrified I lost the past
Your image is inscribed into my unconsciousness state of mind
As I lay with him thoughts of you spin. I must rehearse his name on the outside and yet I dream your lovemaking over again on the inside.
I am a mosaic mess, my spirit like a broken glass
Thick red blood floods every dream of happiness.
One more dark night I beg for the answers into the light.
If only he would give me an excuse to leave my life.
A beautiful chance went away when I took on this reasonability.
Choices turned into sacrifice; how do I turn it all back? I’m not a star in the sky
Beautiful love was a distraction from the pain, from the sin, from him. I missed the real message I ignored the obvious sign, My Beautiful distraction was meant by design.
I was given what most women are denied -- A real love -- A beautiful Man an incredible distraction I released with my own hands.
PearlJoy!!!!
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out of sight, out of mind, but never out of heart...
She may never be at peace with herself.
She took for granted everything that made them;
more than anyone sees... the black, the blue, in sparkling magical hue...
and she's forgotten the little things
That opened up new worlds and new possiblities.
Beautiful Distraction
I played you back, I did everything I could to get you closer to me,
'I won't let you go' I promised
but the person falling now; is me, and it can't be right.
Dead doesn't describe it,
I couldn't give anything that wasn't already had, I couldn't get you back;
I know you dream about me, about how it was better,
And I know you're with another man, with my face, with my face inscribed over his... with glossy eyes.
Curse the day and way it all played out.