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ditchdolly
Posts: 19
the further i go
i want to get home
have a safe place of my own
but then when i get there
it's fear and dispair
i can hardly wait to be
out on the road
trapped inbetween lives
like trapped under ice
the suffocatioin will kill
makes us want to live so hard
but to live suffering
to have no choice
can't escape this brain
eternal damnation
resistance is futile
mortal enemy....self
wait for the stars to take me back
wait for those seconds of relief
between spasms
cry for good
cry for pain
cry for what's all to real
cry cause we can't stop time
age will eventually get the better of us all
small humans
can't trust can't rust away the pain
all we know is pain from love
will it ever teach me something new?
will the pain everpay off?
always waiting for it to become somehow.
it feels so inbetween
please let me pass this level
need relief
don't know ifi can do this
look for clues to chare
hope for my answer my ticket to the stars
hope is my answer just can't quite see it all somehow
this life is so insignificant..
try to say they're not..
tell eachother it's not insignificant
because it pains us to know our loves suffer
but so what if it is.. half of us would simply die
no reasons to be.
the ignorant blissful ones that are left
give room for evolution all over again..
have we reached our peak.. built our cairn?
no words ... no life.. only sounds.. the only thing that makes it okay when all else is nothing inside..
makes one be present..
small computer brain functions
blood still flows
guts still churn..
oh small human body.. why do you mmake me so vulnerable
why do i have to comprehend this mortality?
can't stand you . human self..
completely healthy and scared..
we will live on if we feel like it..
what choice do we have in the end?
there's no choice.
always ending. always beginning..
no inbwtween
exist for this moment.. if this feeling's just exisiting
why why why why why
why was i born with this brain in my skull
stay in pain..
so insignificant..
can't let go
i want to get home
have a safe place of my own
but then when i get there
it's fear and dispair
i can hardly wait to be
out on the road
trapped inbetween lives
like trapped under ice
the suffocatioin will kill
makes us want to live so hard
but to live suffering
to have no choice
can't escape this brain
eternal damnation
resistance is futile
mortal enemy....self
wait for the stars to take me back
wait for those seconds of relief
between spasms
cry for good
cry for pain
cry for what's all to real
cry cause we can't stop time
age will eventually get the better of us all
small humans
can't trust can't rust away the pain
all we know is pain from love
will it ever teach me something new?
will the pain everpay off?
always waiting for it to become somehow.
it feels so inbetween
please let me pass this level
need relief
don't know ifi can do this
look for clues to chare
hope for my answer my ticket to the stars
hope is my answer just can't quite see it all somehow
this life is so insignificant..
try to say they're not..
tell eachother it's not insignificant
because it pains us to know our loves suffer
but so what if it is.. half of us would simply die
no reasons to be.
the ignorant blissful ones that are left
give room for evolution all over again..
have we reached our peak.. built our cairn?
no words ... no life.. only sounds.. the only thing that makes it okay when all else is nothing inside..
makes one be present..
small computer brain functions
blood still flows
guts still churn..
oh small human body.. why do you mmake me so vulnerable
why do i have to comprehend this mortality?
can't stand you . human self..
completely healthy and scared..
we will live on if we feel like it..
what choice do we have in the end?
there's no choice.
always ending. always beginning..
no inbwtween
exist for this moment.. if this feeling's just exisiting
why why why why why
why was i born with this brain in my skull
stay in pain..
so insignificant..
can't let go
drowning....drowning....down...down...down
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i've spent days and hours and lifetimes
trying to fashion it into words
that always manage to make a fool of me
but if you could feel what i'm feeling
the longing and mourning for the one my heart still beats for
missing the home we never made together and the unborn children i saw in his eyes
you could see that in spite of the sadness and confusion
in spite of the aching
love still lives in my heart
and hope may be much less than a flicker
glimmering and glowing in the farthest corner of the deepest chamber of my heart
but i still believe in love
and i have hope that one day love calls us all by our name
there is a ying and there is a yen in which we take a deep breath and breathe again
peace
back to hot
passing all degrees of cool and warm