Regret
hosh1314
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Regret
I guess lives within the core of my greatest fears
Afraid of letting go of that which hurts me the most
And why?
Is it that I am senseless to all that is good?
Or am I simply stuck on keeping my life in the mess I've been left with
I wonder how different things could be
If I could simply let go
Why can’t I let go?
My only fear is the thoughts that I am too afraid to share
So instead I push them all to the outermost layer of my being
Denying its existence, hoping only to forget them for a while
Though their presence will never truly cease to exist
I wish to be with the ones that care
Yet I repeatedly push them away
Forcing them outside of the cage
Only to have them watch me waste away
Tears roll down their faces
For this I will never forgive myself
I long to please them yet I repeatedly fall into the same trap
The web is constantly spinning and just when I break free I am sucked back in
Only to realize that I myself have voluntarily stayed in place
Fearing what exists outside of my world
The pain that I have is mine
I will not share it with anyone
This is why I am trapped in this state of loneliness
I am surrounded only by the shadows of their existence
For I tucked their presence away
Revolting their kindest words and twisting them into words of hate
I feel so much regret
I will never truly forgive myself of these mistakes
This is why I must go
I have no choice but to leave
For it is the only way to free them of worry
I am sorry
I am just so cold and alone
The floor has become damp from my tears
I watch the tears turn to blood as I surrender myself to what must come
It is over
I guess lives within the core of my greatest fears
Afraid of letting go of that which hurts me the most
And why?
Is it that I am senseless to all that is good?
Or am I simply stuck on keeping my life in the mess I've been left with
I wonder how different things could be
If I could simply let go
Why can’t I let go?
My only fear is the thoughts that I am too afraid to share
So instead I push them all to the outermost layer of my being
Denying its existence, hoping only to forget them for a while
Though their presence will never truly cease to exist
I wish to be with the ones that care
Yet I repeatedly push them away
Forcing them outside of the cage
Only to have them watch me waste away
Tears roll down their faces
For this I will never forgive myself
I long to please them yet I repeatedly fall into the same trap
The web is constantly spinning and just when I break free I am sucked back in
Only to realize that I myself have voluntarily stayed in place
Fearing what exists outside of my world
The pain that I have is mine
I will not share it with anyone
This is why I am trapped in this state of loneliness
I am surrounded only by the shadows of their existence
For I tucked their presence away
Revolting their kindest words and twisting them into words of hate
I feel so much regret
I will never truly forgive myself of these mistakes
This is why I must go
I have no choice but to leave
For it is the only way to free them of worry
I am sorry
I am just so cold and alone
The floor has become damp from my tears
I watch the tears turn to blood as I surrender myself to what must come
It is over
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(Maybe if you continue to open up with words it will help?)