Poetry Column

hosh1314

i decided that instead of starting a new post for each poem id just post them in here.. please leave feedback

this one is untitled

Constant confusion leaves me speechless
There’s nothing left
I try to explain all these feelings
But I don’t know where to begin
No my fears are coming to life
In my heart
It seems I’ve died
Voices speaking
Paranoia rules the night
Now I see that
There’s no where to hide

this one is called "An Unclear Silence"

Watching the rain pour down
Making everything unclear
Feel the sorrow growing
As it consumes my every thought
Everyone I love
Will soon be gone
Now it seems I'm asking
The same questions again and again
Again I'm receiving no reply
As the silence sinks in
I'm concerned about the state
Of those I’ve left corrupt
They say the sun is shining
So why do I feel so cold?

and finally.. this last one is called "Truth"

Traveling down this lonely river
It seems this river can not be damned
So I wonder
What’s the purpose?
Of trying when we already know it will result in failure
I think I’ll ask you one more question
Until I continue down this road
Do you have a question good enough to make me want to grow old?
When everyday is the same
Change seems so far away
When shelter no longer protects you from the rain
You’d might as well stay in this place
Pain is much more realistic
When it’s staring you in the face
Remove the thorn so you can clearly see
What has become of me
And I’ll attempt to open my eyes and I’ll try to see
This light that you say is right in front on me

ill be updating this post regularly.. as i said early please feel free to leave feedback.. good or bad.. constructive criticism is highly apreciated.. or if you relate to these or have any interpretations feel free to post about it.. thanks!!

Medicated-Genius

Thinking....looks good, feels good, is good.

hosh1314

heres the last updates.. this ones called "Free Shot"

With eyes sewn shut it’s hard to see
What some call actuality
I can't seem to grasp the key
That leads to the place I long to be
I wish that I could make you see
That it’s hard not to cry when life has no meaning
I wish I could promise that I will survive
Until the time is right
But you never know
When situations are placed into your lap
It’s hard to look away when you know someone needs your help
I’ve tried so hard to explain it many times
But I can't make you see life through my eyes
Watching people slowly die
Its slow suicide
Something that not many have survived
That’s why I believe that I'm real lucky
Even though I know I could never give what you want from me
I could try if I had someone that loved me
But I guess that it’s my fault
For the way my life’s turned out
I meant it when I said I’d try to find out how
To get away from this pain that I’ve tried for so long to erase
I can't escape
Maybe it’s time to come face to face with what I’ve done
I know I already told you but I'm not sure that you understood
Why I still don’t know if I should
As I stand in my hiding place
Contemplating all the mistakes that have caused so much shame
But I realize that I have a shot
I still can't decide to take it or not
But I know I must because this shot doesn’t come with a cost

justam

It's interesting to read your words. I just wonder what you could possibly have done to anyone (short of killing them) that could have devastated you to this point. :(

hosh1314

this one is called "The Needle"

When the needle has control
Nothing else matters
When the needle has a hold
There are no more questions to ask
Control is given
You have it all
But this slow suicide takes its toll
Decaying from the inside out
For all to see but you
Nothing seems wrong
I'm fine
So why are you crying?
I'm not dying
I promise that I'm not lying
It’s about time to go into hiding
So you won't see the damage done
I’ll wear long sleeves
When I leave
To hide the scars left by my most hated friend
Maybe they were right
The needle will be my end

DopeBeastie

milk blood

hosh1314

milk blood?? wtf

DopeBeastie

I caught you knockin' at my cellar door
"I love you, baby, can I have some more"
Ooh, ooh, the damage's done.

I hit the city and I lost my band
I watched the needle take another man
Gone, gone, the damage's done.

I sing the song because I love the man
I know that some of you don't understand
Milk-blood to keep from running out.

I've seen the needle and the damage done
A little part of it in everyone
But every junkie's like a settin' sun.



(it's a Neil Young song, and an old one at that... dat's wtf, j )

theVerbToTrust

and an awesome song at that

hosh1314

this one is called "No Need To Pretend"

I know life’s supposed to be hard
But sometimes it pushes me way too far
I try to disguise it
Everything means nothing
When you know that you’ll never be something
I'm sorry
I tried
You don’t know how hard I’ve cried
Late at night
Because you weren’t in sight
I'm afraid
Because I know someday you’ll be gone
And I’ll be left here all alone
I try and I try to make everything right
Please don’t say that I'm doing it
I know I'm failing
Everyone seems to think that they can cure me
Yet they don’t even know what hurts me
If I had a reason
I’d stay until the end
But the game is over
There’s no need to pretend

FancyFacade

awesome words, i hope you feel better than what they say

hosh1314

its been a while since i updated.. none of these are really titled.. theres a space between every poem.. feedback is always welcome!!

All the worry is leaving me
As my fate becomes clear
Now I wonder why you scream
If everyone falls
Now the walls are caving in
And it feels like you’re all alone
Do you believe in any good?
‘Cause I don’t
False pretenses are never seen
There intentions are never known
I wonder how you’re rising up
When everything is gone
Take the needle and make it sting
That’s what I’d do
It seems I have no self-control
Don’t come to me when you feel lost
‘Cause there’s a place that I have gone
Please don’t follow

I'm wondering what I'm supposed to do
How can I get by without my cure?
I don’t want your remedy
I want what I want
Why do you seem so surprised?
I’ve said this many times before
Everyone has their own needs
Everyone has their own false gods
So when it seems you’ve lost control
No one will know

The grand façade is such a fake
Made to break you when you fall
Pushing to see what you can take
If anything at all
Do not follow anyone blindly
‘Cause they will kick you when you’re down
Falling further and no one knows
Maybe they would if you’d show
All the pain you hold inside
‘Til there’s no tears left to cry
Now it feels like you’re all alone
And you can't survive

So withdrawn from everything
Do you know what’s going on?
Locked in a room without a key
God knows I'm gone
Eye for an eye is what I say
Won't you join me?
The debt I owe is way too much
I can't do this anymore
Isolation takes control
I don’t need you
The poison sure does look to cook
On a spoon it is prepared
Take the needle
Finish the job
You know what must be done
I bet you don’t want the truth
Now that it’s staring you in the face
Everyone says they can feel my pain
But it’s mine

Won't you tell me how to survive?
Since you seem to know how I should live my life
I can't seem to figure out where you’ve gone
So I’ll take the blame and tell you it’s my fault
I really wish I could remember what went on last night
From what you said I had a good time
I swear tomorrow’s the last time I’ll get high
By the look on your face I’d say you don’t believe me at all
I guess all my lying has finally caught up
So I’ll sit by while you talk and you plot
About saving me from something you know nothing about
In my mind I get so lost
In the memories of all I’ve done wrong
Watching you tear and rip me apart
But I don’t mind
‘Cause I deserve it all

Medicated-Genius

never fail to move me...... how i wish for you today

hosh1314

thanks.. that means a lot.. what does it mean that you wish for me?? im not really familiar with that phrase

Medicated-Genius

well, it's a line from long road..... I put my own spin on it and use it to express my wish for a smile on your face. A bit of a brighter tomorrow. One thing is certain, the past cannot be changed, but the future is in your hands. So I wish you the strength to find and acheive all you want.

The smallest ocean

To be honest I brushed over all the poems meaning no disrespect (as in they werent good enough, cause thats not true) its just cause I'm sleepy. They were interesting, can I suggest a little obvious and predictable at times? I know that mightnt be a valid argument but I feel that they were slightly repeditive and it was like youd be able to get the valid message your making across in a shorter amount of lines. I guess I like poetry with a lot of depth, where lines dont blatanly tell you what its about, where the words dont state but imply a certain mood,thought etc Im not very good at explaining myself so sorry if there's any confusion over this post, feel free to question it though

hosh1314

heres the newest one ive wrote.. its called "Pretend"

So walk along
Go see your friends
Make them believe
That you fit in
The childish ones
Don’t walk alone
Is this the way we must grow old?
There’s so much fear
Behind the tears
You haven’t shed for so many years
So walk on by
Try to pretend
That your enemies
Are still your friends
Until the end