Thoughts

blackoceans929

sitting at hope
depressed and alone
wondering if anyone cares
as I sit here just breathing air
empty thoughts swimming through my head
sometimes wishing I were dead
as I sit at home alone in my bed
would anyone miss me if I were gone?
or would it just be the same old song?
lying in my bed just staring at the ceiling
with no pain thoughts or feelings
looking around for something new
for pleasant thoughts are so few
staring at beautiful pictures of places
remembering:names,fun times, and faces
I look at them for hope,findinf none
because now I am far too numb
numb with the thought that these things were real
as I break down on my knees and kneel
praying that this feeling would go away
will I be able to make it one more day?
will I just die within my own thoughts?
with the only good feeling knowing at least I fought?
in my head I’m screaming
but no sound comes out
now with this feeling of doubt
hoping someone would talk to me
feeling loved just a mere memory
my room feeling like a prison cell
I’m locked up and no one can tell
somewhere someone holds the key
maybe some day they will set my free
free from my doubts, tears and fears
someone help me makes these thoughts disappear
confused, not knowing what to do
wondering if my own thoughts are true
oh how I want to fly away
for locked in this room I cannot stay
hearing hateful thoughts of my own
even my room doesn’t feel like home
looking out the window I see you hold the key
coming here to rescue me
you open the door
the pain I feel is no more
I run into your arms
knowing with you there is no harm
feeling you say "it’s all right"
realizing now that it’s true
and it’s all because of you