Ca-tar-sis

romybian

(I found this today, wrote it a month ago or so.... Never checked for mistakes cause I just love how honest it is.... anyway.... here u go)

I woke up this morning wanting to have some fun
Instead I spent a day thinking about the meaning of "fun"
I realized too many things,
won't write them down, don't feel like... no
But know what?
I still want to have fun,
I want to cry out loud as many stupid things as I can think about,
I want to laugh at my own jokes even if they're not fun at all,
I want to hold your hand an run so fast we'd end up on the floor,
And look as stupid as I can to every single one around.
I want to let them know I just don't care anymore,
Show how many steps I took since I opened my eyes,
I want to talk about that question mark I saw the other night,
Huge, red, surrounded by names, doubts that look so stupid now.
I want to laugh thinking about those nights I tried to be someone,
while everyone around was trying to be someone... else.
I want to sit down, close my eyes,
zip some wine and count the lines
that divided every lap I've run to get to where I am.
I want to ask him what took him so long, so he'll answer "the sea"
then wake up and tell everyone I had a stupid dream.
I want to hear that first guitar exploding on the night,
I want to hear my nephew cry for the first time, so damn alive.
I want to go back to my school days, and tell that teacher to fuck off,
then run and come back to today, and laugh at what I've done.
I want to scream out loud,
I want to let you all know,
WE'RE SO ALIVE WE JUST HAVE TO GROW...
Cause life, my stupid dear friends, Is everything we've got,
And if it was only joy, we'd have something that wouldn't take us anywhere.
I want to stand here and tell you,
every tear's been the best,
every smile and every fucked up day has driven life where it now stands.
And I don't care if they like what I have to say
I don't really care if they read to every word I send,
I don't give a fuckin' rat's ass if you're pretending you control your life,
cause I care enough about everyone to go and fuck it up by being sad.
This past month, or two,
everything started to make sense,
no matter if my days are up or down,
I'm learning how to enjoy life.
I want to send this invitation to that single soul that wonders outside,
lets walk the path that we're supposed to walk and then, let's just split up.
But let's not leave it all unfinished like it is now,
let's close the cycle and move on, and thank our souls for what we've had.
And you, sorry, it's not the right moment,
I've got unnatended buisness I need to finish before the sun goes down.
Cause you can't start a book without finishing the last one,
got some chapters to type and it feels like it's the right moment.

Read between lines if you want to find a meaning,
but let me tell you, it's not worth it, every word says so much things you're gonna drown before you see what this black drawings really mean...

And to steal some lines from a movie I saw the other day... I feel good, tantananananana... and so on, you know how it goes, let's sing it along.

Mystique420

if u wait too long for the "right time" you'll find it's passed u by...