Life is what you make it.
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****written 2 to 3 months ago****
Maybe I'm really good at avoiding reality.
As far as today... I'm extremely happy. Maybe accepting that death is unavoidable and in constant movement towards me is what made me appreciate today. Or maybe yesterday was too scary to waste my energy on cursin' today..
The thing is, I'm still scared... I'm fuckin' frightened... And the minute I tried to do something about it, the whole idea of failing scared the shit outta me.
Then I get an email talkin' about death, and watch a movie where they talk about death. Watch the news and 20 people die, and counting.
Then it hits me... We born, we die... maybe we should release a bit the tie.
Parents hoping you'll be number 1, cause number 2 is already taken... by them. They want the best for us, we want them to be proud, they're never proud, they want the best, the best does not exist. the moment you feel you've reached perfection, you've became an ignorant.
The human kind is constantly looking for a way to escape from the fact that noone can be number one at anything cause the jury does not exist and if it did it would not agree.
I've put many pictures on frames, and they're not giving me any answers, they just sit there, asking me questions that my mind tells them to ask.
I'm sick and tired of being afraid.
The whole world is fuckin' afraid, specially when they're 22 years old.
My nails are bit off but they still manage to rip off my lips. I listen to music and agree but I never stand up and make people agree on my soul's music. cause I'm scared. And you are too, we're all scared and it's beautiful.
I'm isolated and it is my choice. When you're too tall to look down and too short to look up you get lost.
***written today***
Maybe I'm really good at accepting reality.
As far as today, I'm extremely concerned. It's when I open my eyes to my naive soul that I get the feeling I'm walking the wrong path, cause I'm not walking at all.
They say the first step is acceptance, well I accept I'm going too slow. And I accept life's not gonna come and get me to make something out of me.
I accept I've been running from the truth when it was actually tied to my foot.
I accept I've tried too hard to close my eyes instead of running against my fear.
I accept I'm scared, and I love it cause it means I'm going somewhere, somewhere uncertain and challenging.
I'm leavin my loved ones to go find myself, the one I love the most.
Life is what you make it.
Maybe I'm really good at avoiding reality.
As far as today... I'm extremely happy. Maybe accepting that death is unavoidable and in constant movement towards me is what made me appreciate today. Or maybe yesterday was too scary to waste my energy on cursin' today..
The thing is, I'm still scared... I'm fuckin' frightened... And the minute I tried to do something about it, the whole idea of failing scared the shit outta me.
Then I get an email talkin' about death, and watch a movie where they talk about death. Watch the news and 20 people die, and counting.
Then it hits me... We born, we die... maybe we should release a bit the tie.
Parents hoping you'll be number 1, cause number 2 is already taken... by them. They want the best for us, we want them to be proud, they're never proud, they want the best, the best does not exist. the moment you feel you've reached perfection, you've became an ignorant.
The human kind is constantly looking for a way to escape from the fact that noone can be number one at anything cause the jury does not exist and if it did it would not agree.
I've put many pictures on frames, and they're not giving me any answers, they just sit there, asking me questions that my mind tells them to ask.
I'm sick and tired of being afraid.
The whole world is fuckin' afraid, specially when they're 22 years old.
My nails are bit off but they still manage to rip off my lips. I listen to music and agree but I never stand up and make people agree on my soul's music. cause I'm scared. And you are too, we're all scared and it's beautiful.
I'm isolated and it is my choice. When you're too tall to look down and too short to look up you get lost.
***written today***
Maybe I'm really good at accepting reality.
As far as today, I'm extremely concerned. It's when I open my eyes to my naive soul that I get the feeling I'm walking the wrong path, cause I'm not walking at all.
They say the first step is acceptance, well I accept I'm going too slow. And I accept life's not gonna come and get me to make something out of me.
I accept I've been running from the truth when it was actually tied to my foot.
I accept I've tried too hard to close my eyes instead of running against my fear.
I accept I'm scared, and I love it cause it means I'm going somewhere, somewhere uncertain and challenging.
I'm leavin my loved ones to go find myself, the one I love the most.
Life is what you make it. "The joke in your language won't come out the same" (Tom Petty)
I'm no dude! Dudette!
I'm no dude! Dudette!
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I like the change in attitude!
And we are all scared, that makes us alive!
Yep, we're all scared and it's beautiful, that we're so alive.
I'm no dude! Dudette!