Regrets

AliAli Posts: 2,621
edited September 2005 in Poetry, Prose, Music & Art
I was asking for it.
We drank and smoked
the neccessital luxuries.
I was 27.
I dated him for 5 years.
He never proposed.
He bought himself a $5,ooo watch and
A $7,ooo suped up car.
He was probably selling coke.
What did I care,
I didn't love him as he fucked me.
But,
When he wouldn't let me leave,
and I pushed him aside,
And I was fed up,
I honestly can say,
it really hurt,
as he hit me in the face.

A few years went by,
and he lost his hair.
Lost his dignity.
Lost hope.
Now he tells me
he should go to church.
He shouldn't sit in my pew.
I'm afraid of falling in love.
A whisper and a thrill
A whisper and a chill
adv2005

"Why do I bother?"
The 11th Commandment.
"Whatever"

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  • reads like a tragic story... i love it Ali
    It doesnt hurt.... when I bleed
    but memories...they eat me
    I've seen it all before,...
    bring it on cause I'm no victim.
    -Ghost
  • That's really sad... Kinda fits my mood today, though...

    Thanks for sharing...
    Rock over London... Rock on Chicago... I love what you do for me Toyota - Wesley Willis
  • AliAli Posts: 2,621
    Thanks guys for responding.Any advice on it is appreciated.
    I must admit...groove inspired my blunt honesty,
    but mine is quite sad and remorseful on the same note....
    A whisper and a thrill
    A whisper and a chill
    adv2005

    "Why do I bother?"
    The 11th Commandment.
    "Whatever"

    PETITION TO STOP THE BAN OF SMOKING IN BARS IN THE UNITED STATES....Anyone?
  • love it ali. quite sad. and it's not just honest, but poetically honest....well written.

    still talk to the guy?
    .........................................................................
  • Ms. HaikuMs. Haiku Washington DC Posts: 7,265
    He sounds like an asshole. Good riddance! Clear poem, by the way.
    There is no such thing as leftover pizza. There is now pizza and later pizza. - anonymous
    The risk I took was calculated, but man, am I bad at math - The Mincing Mockingbird
  • "I'm afraid of falling in love."

    He does sound like a prick! I have always found it strange how women can even consider, re-considering going back to men like this...

    "A few years went by,
    and he lost his hair.
    Lost his dignity.
    Lost hope.
    Now he tells me
    he should go to church.
    He shouldn't sit in my pew."

    Hmmm, I also find it almost laughable how, once these jack offs hit rock bottom, all of a sudden, they find god??? That just doesn't sit well with me.

    I'm glad this was raw and honest, Ali. It made me mad and any poem that taps into one's emotions is a good poem, IMO. :)
    Forget your perfect offering, there is a crack in everything, that's how the light gets in. - Leonard Cohen
  • AliAli Posts: 2,621
    Thanks bib...thanks be...
    yea be...I still talk to him...hes just strung out I guess on life and love and drugs and I just cant help but to feel sorry for the life he had.Inner city schooling,rough parents.But that was the attraction.He was all tore up the night we fought...but some guys just dont have the education.You can only hope they turn into alterboys.Some of them do...

    But....
    Cest l'a vie.He knows what hes doing..but he dissed me the other day...I was suppossed to fix his resume...he doesnt know what hes doing when hes on the shit...so...hes forgiven..and hes finally seeking help so thats all that matters.I have to feel sorry for him.
    A whisper and a thrill
    A whisper and a chill
    adv2005

    "Why do I bother?"
    The 11th Commandment.
    "Whatever"

    PETITION TO STOP THE BAN OF SMOKING IN BARS IN THE UNITED STATES....Anyone?
  • Ali wrote:
    Thanks bib...thanks be...
    yea be...I still talk to him...hes just strung out I guess on life and love and drugs and I just cant help but to feel sorry for the life he had.Inner city schooling,rough parents.But that was the attraction.He was all tore up the night we fought...but some guys just dont have the education.You can only hope they turn into alterboys.Some of them do...

    But....
    Cest l'a vie.He knows what hes doing..but he dissed me the other day...I was suppossed to fix his resume...he doesnt know what hes doing when hes on the shit...so...hes forgiven..and hes finally seeking help so thats all that matters.I have to feel sorry for him.

    DON'T LET HIM TAKE YOU FOR GRANTED!!! If he's still on the shit, well, he's not helping himself and you know that you can't help someone who won't help themselves. Forgiveness is definately a good thing, I agree, just don't want to think that you'll be constantly forgiving and he, constantly needing forgiveness, if ya know what I mean.
    Forget your perfect offering, there is a crack in everything, that's how the light gets in. - Leonard Cohen
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