my truth i thought was you was a lie.

catefrances

the thought of you makes me ache
i hate that it is you i think of
i would do anything to be rid of these thoughts i have
the thought of you makes me weak
that when i least expect it you slide into my consciousness
i would do anything for it to be different

i never thought itd be as difficult as this
i had hoped your indifference was enough to stop me cold
well colour me fucking shocked that i ache for you
i never thought id feel such disrespect
i had hoped for so much more, but you know that, right?
well colour me NOT surprised that the things you said to me didnt mean anything to you.

everything i gave you was all that i had
and all that i had was not enough
i hate what you did. i hate what you didnt
but hating you is beyond me and that is good
though at the bottom of a bottle it doesnt feel that way

everything you gave me wasnt enough
and it was all you could
i know thats what you tell yourself
and i know its what i have to believe
for the thin strand of sanity that binds me
i tell myself that over and over again until i think i might even start to believe it
i didnt walk away cause i stopped loving you. i walked away because i did.
but you know that, right?
if you know nothing else, you know that much at least.