will i won't i

catefrances

sshhh
fingers to lips
if i sit here
real quiet
no one will know
i'm here
i'll not make a sound
turn the light off
sit here in the dark
hear my heart beat
in my head
slow down it's rate
til i'm sleeping
count the breaths
as i live
while i die
wrap my arms
around my legs
drop my head
to my knees
making myself smaller
as small as i can
as small as i feel
if i sit here real quiet
and not make a sound
i can will myself
my whole self
away
from this place
just
maybe.