down

catefrances

wake up feeling down
heavy ache
i need to be awake
my self
uncooperative
how many times
do i have to feel like this
how many times
will i be on my knees
under a weight
no one can feel but me
i can get away
one way for sure
i know
from that one way
my lack of conviction
saves me
from what
eternity
memory
for what
indecision
an ache so hard
my heart tears
feel literal
physical
keeping it together
never fell so far
down so low
never felt so lost