not so happy monday

catefrances

she feels herself slipping
energy draining slowly
a heavy weight upon her being
she hates herself like this
it comes from nowhere
and disappears back the way it came
she wonders if she has the patience
she wonders if she has the will
she questions how much she wants it
could it just be the weather?
constant rain and grey clouds
mirror her mood
a chill runs through her body
and she can't get warm
she wants to leave it all behind
the stagnant swamp her life has become
sucks her down to nothing
she sees no light at the end
only a fog of indecision and uncertainty
she wants to cut it from her life
to watch it flow taking with it...
...everything.
she feels nothing but sadness
she feels nothing but.....
nothing but.....
...but what she wants to feel
and what she wants to feel is
.....him.