lost inside.

catefrances

stand in front of me
slap me down
cut my heartstrings
make me feel
anything
nothing gets in
the heart it beats
it walks
it talks
but does not feel
i am alive
aren't i
connections not made
so controlled
knuckles white
dare me to live
cause i don't wanna
touch me
feel me
skin goes cold
heart like a stone
leave me alone
bleed me
drain me
suck me dry
make me feel
cause i don't wanna.

pinon

uhmm... almost speachless. I saw your post..amongst all the others...
"lost inside", and I had to think about clicking it...should I or should I not ???
well, I did...and it´s like a punch in the stomac, and it had me crying.
I was "lost in there" for so long too, until recently...when...huh.. I stumbeled upon PJ´s music, and shortly thereafter suffered a "total-mental-meltdown"....the good kind I guess...lol...and I regained my ability to feel again. So, your poem really struck a chord in me, and I hope you find something that cracks you open soon..., if it´s based on yourself I mean...hmm, I just assume so...geezz...shouldn´t post this perhaps....I talk to much....

anyway...thx for sharing

twin1

Sometimes feeling too much can make you feel numb. I am sure we can all relate to this at some time or another. Our defenses to pain - fight, flight, or freeze. Oh how we can make ourselves suffer. Luckily we are given another day...to do with it what we will.