dying.

catefrances

living
barely
i can hardly
breathe
everything is
coming down
on me
wide awake
2 a.m.
waiting
for demons
to claim
my soul...
..again

i can
hardly breathe
my thoughts
backwards
in my mind
it's getting
harder
for me
it's getting
harder
for me
it's getting
harder
for me
to breathe
to see
the light
shining
down on
me.

pickupyourwill

this is so sad and intense. i hope you aren't going through this for real .

...the part where you talk about 2 am and waiting for demons to claim your soul...again......is kinda spooky. i know that you're figuratively speaking, but it reminded me of 2 movies i saw about a month ago--the Amityville remake and the Exorcism of Emily Rose. (yeah, not in the hurry to see any horror flicks anytime soon) but in both movies, 3am is the time when all the bad stuff happens b/c its historically known as the demonic hour (as explained in the Emily Rose movie). was just wondering if you were referring to this as well.

i have to admit that ever since I saw those, I tend to pray alot if up around 3am. so i'm a bit superstitious and paranoid--whateva. just thought it might help you out. i find that praying really does calm the nerves.

anyhoo.....good poem.

catefrances

pickupyourwill wrote:

this is so sad and intense. i hope you aren't going through this for real .

...the part where you talk about 2 am and waiting for demons to claim your soul...again......is kinda spooky. i know that you're figuratively speaking, but it reminded me of 2 movies i saw about a month ago--the Amityville remake and the Exorcism of Emily Rose. (yeah, not in the hurry to see any horror flicks anytime soon) but in both movies, 3am is the time when all the bad stuff happens b/c its historically known as the demonic hour (as explained in the Emily Rose movie). was just wondering if you were referring to this as well.

i have to admit that ever since I saw those, I tend to pray alot if up around 3am. so i'm a bit superstitious and paranoid--whateva. just thought it might help you out. i find that praying really does calm the nerves.

anyhoo.....good poem.

no not specifically.
i'm neither superstitious or religious. nor am i a fan of horror films. i don't have nightmares so they do nothing for me.
2 a.m. is usually the time when i decide whether to go to sleep or not. if i'm not asleep then i usually stay awake for the rest of the night. i've found that when i do wake from sleep it is around 4 a.m.
2 a.m. is also a very calm time for me. it's when my mind is most open, hence the difficulty in deciding to sleep or not. it is this time when things, if they are going to make an appearance, turn up.
what they are is what they are. and sometimes they are not what i want them to be.

pickupyourwill

so you're only getting about 2 hrs sleep a night?--ouch. I'd be a walking zombie--wait i already am--ha, ha,ha. hey if 2 am is the time of your creative flow, then write til your heart's content. just stay healthy and catch some zzz's from time to time, ayite?

~~cheers~~

eddies grrl

i see you have another death poem posted in a dift thread.


hey, not that there's anything WRONG with that...

catefrances

not just these days e's grrl. death has never been far from my thoughts.

catefrances

pickupyourwill wrote:

this is so sad and intense. i hope you aren't going through this for real .

...the part where you talk about 2 am and waiting for demons to claim your soul...again......is kinda spooky. i know that you're figuratively speaking, but it reminded me of 2 movies i saw about a month ago--the Amityville remake and the Exorcism of Emily Rose. (yeah, not in the hurry to see any horror flicks anytime soon) but in both movies, 3am is the time when all the bad stuff happens b/c its historically known as the demonic hour (as explained in the Emily Rose movie). was just wondering if you were referring to this as well.

interesting that i should re-read this. a little while back i fell asleep and when i woke up i realised i hadn't put the garbage out. so i drag my arse out into the night to put the bin by the kerb. it was around 3am and i have to say it was the eeriest feeling. it just felt wrong being outside at that time.
i'm used to being out and about around 2 am(even walking the 5km home from the station) and being awake at 4am. but 3am was something different. the night just felt incredibly still but like there was something else there as well. the next day when i was talking about it, i called it the monster hour.