lying.. staring.. wishing.. waiting.

catefrances

lying on my bed
staring up at the ceiling
wishing i was dead
my fingers twisted
up in the mosquito net
wishing i was
anywhere but here

lying on my bed
staring up at the ceiling
wishing i was dead
two hands held a pillow
shame i can still
breathe through it

lying on my bed
staring up at the ceiling
wishing for a peaceful sleep
to carry my soul away

lying on my bed
staring up at the ceiling
in the dead of night
floating up above myself
the sound of footsteps
coming down the hall
like death row guards
leading me down
that green mile
to my fate

i'm lying on my bed
staring up at the ceiling
wishing i was dead
knowing that right here
this is all i have to give
knowing here right now
this is it this is the end

the house grows silent
the sound of violence
no one hears
i'm breaking my own heart
so i can mend

staring down from the ceiling
looking at the life i had to live
knew it wouldn't take that long
my life was mine
it was all i had to give.