touch

catefrances

i ache for your touch
i ache when you touch me
your bare skin on mine
i close my eyes
will myself not to scream
to stay
to let you in
it's been so long

his shadow filled the doorway
fell across my room
like a full moon on water
reversed
i tried to get away
to crawl inside myself
nothing ever worked
he always came for me
always found me
always took what he wanted
all that i had
never gave me much thought
just what he could get

after he was gone
and i got away from there
i lived with the only person
i could trust
she didn't let anyone near
kept the world away
i was so lonely
with only her to talk to
she was always with me
never alone
bare light bulb hanging down
see her in the mirror
sallow face
furrowed brow
looking back at me
with my eyes

i welcomed death
some times with open arms
often times with ambivalence
it didn't welcome me
it disappointed me every time
i disappointed me
not seeing it through
it's not that i'm afraid to die
just of the pain getting there
but for now
i want to live
at least to feel alive

i lied
i'm always alone
even in a room full of people
just me and my thoughts
i still ache for your touch
but i'll always ache
when you touch me.

imspinnin

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