hate

catefrances

i hate what i've become
every word i heard is poison
and i'd gladly drink my fill
i hate that "if only"
has become my daily prayer
i hate that you make
me feel like nobody
i hate i can't get past it
and you cloud my every move
i hate i never had the guts
to tell you what i really thought
i hate that you turned your back
without another word
i hate i get no respite from something
that was over before it really started
i hate you didn't trust me or
believe in me enough to share
i hate that i'd degrade myself
for one more chance at being hurt
but what i really hate the most
is everything within my skin.