shattered

catefrances

i feel like a petulant child
not getting her way
i feel like a bitch
for saying what i had to say
i feel like i’m choking
and can’t hardly breathe
i feel like i’m dying
i wish i could do it with ease
i feel i could cry so much
i’d drown in my tears
i feel like i’ve lost you
i wish you were here
what was i thinking?
well, i don’t think i was
what i was doing was feeling.
but now i’m diseased
it takes all of my energy
to hold on as i fall to my knees.
sure the decisions i’ve made
have all been my own
but the foundation they were built on
has stopped being strong.
i could make it easy
and just step away
but fuck you i don’t want to
you've been told before that i was here to stay.
i know i can be the calm in your storm
but you don’t seem to want it
your life seems too torn.
so when you think of me
and i know that you will
think of how good we could have been
while it’s my wish for you
that your mind be so still.

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what i was doing was feeling.
but now i’m diseased

i could make it easy
and just step away
but fuck you i don’t want to
you've been told before that i was here to stay.
i know i can be the calm in your storm
but you don’t seem to want it
your life seems too torn.
so when you think of me
and i know that you will
think of how good we could have been
while it’s my wish for you
that your mind be so still.


I love this poem especially these parts.

I stepped away though.....no other option for me :(