turning

catefrances

i feel im going down for the last time
and you're not around to see me cry
ive tried so hard but things just don't work
and it's time to take the last boat from the dock
every word i said to you i meant
but i cant be here the way you want me to
the ache i feel inside overwhelms me
all i want is for you to lay your hand upon my skin
and make everything alright
my body is numb from loneliness
i need your touch more than you could know
i'm going down for the last time
i can't do this anymore
as i push you away please don't follow.

matt776x2

I came home to you tonight
did you feel me push against your skin?
I was hoping that you would recognize that familiar touch
loneliness is a state of mind
a state we all aggressively pursue to stay out of
but find ourselves in even with a crowded room
"I don't know" is my best answer
it is all emotion and too much to rely on facts
should skin be so course?
should it be cold to the touch and tense?
is that the flesh of living or the dead?
Please
PLEASE
Tell me the air is frigid
tell me there is nothing wrong
but I feel indifferent

catefrances

loneliness is my state of mind
i crave it while I await a sign
i feel nothing
not even a touch
there’s nothing wrong
believe it if you must
let me be to be alone
my skin just crawls
when you’re by my side
not one word
nor hearts’s desire
can unwrap this wire
that binds me close
so maybe if I leave this place
what I want can be erased
please please please
let me be alone
don’t you despair
i’m going home.

matt776x2

for all your intentions then let it be
alone we are all destined to be
dust in a casket
earth will swallow us whole
the day I knew you
never happened at all
an apparition
a brief moment in eternity
a bomb took my buddy's face
and when it was time to come home
you routed for our enemy