are you with me?

catefrances

she sits as small as she can. her legs drawn up to her body. her arms wrapped around her knees. her eyes are red from crying and the irritability she feels courses through her body. she scratches at her scars and continually runs her fingers through her hair. the cold makes her shiver and she draws her self closer to her insides. the thoughts that crowd her mind are not good. they are all destructive and she is okay with that. she hears the voices in her head telling her what she should do, but she tries to ignore them. their truths she disbelieves. she continues to satiate her thirst and she knows if she does it enough then the end will come. she is not confused. she knows what she wants. how to get it... now thats another thing altogether. something is calling her from the inside. fighting for her self with herself. she lets it out and it is not pretty. are you wth her? if not, then you are against her and she has no time for you.

catefrances

she breaks the seal on another bottle. as she pours another glass she smiles to herself knowing that she is alone and noone matters at this moment. she thinks of him but he is busy and thats okay. she tastes it on her lips and if she could this is the only thing that would pass her lips. but she knows the time will come when self satisfaction just wont get it done. she will approach cautiously but if they give her any amount of scope she will not hesitate. she feels the liquid slide down her throat and it is all she ever wants. that is what she thinks when she is alone and everything else seems like too much bother. she knows it is not all there is. she has known this since she was fourteen years old. and although there are times when she is overwhelmed with desire, her will is strong and she knows how to channel it. it is not all constructive and she has learned to live it that. it has long since stopped amazing her how many other people are like her. but even still they seem to hide themselves... unsure of how they will be seen in the eyes of so called society. but she knows... and she denies no one.