here it is
Felicity
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these are the words
that you have been waiting for
and i've waited to say them
because i wanted clarity
never accuse me
of not having love
it is steeped in every cell
of my physical self
i chose to give to you
to show you what it feels like
to hold someone so tightly
and demonstrate what it is
to love completely
and without abandon or shame
it was your choice
to use that against me
in the end
for i have never once stopped
but you have never once shown
in actuality
that you truly love me
a thirty second phonecall
is not love
insults and nonsense
is not love
saying the words
is not love
only through actions and hands
can you ever really show me
but now that the evidence is real
and she ~ though not well-liked
is your bed partner
i say that it's clear
what her motive is
and she'll be sure to be
as cheerful and wacky and speedy
as you always need
yawn
i'm sure she's smart
and the family loves her
but if they only knew
the facades you both present
it's so absurd
i can hold my head up
and walk up the stairs
with the dignity to shove you
and then look back and smirk
because i am real
and everything i am
is authentic and loving
forgiving and cool
i'm the coolest fucking chick
you would ever have known
i am everything
that you have been waiting for
and i've waited to say them
because i wanted clarity
never accuse me
of not having love
it is steeped in every cell
of my physical self
i chose to give to you
to show you what it feels like
to hold someone so tightly
and demonstrate what it is
to love completely
and without abandon or shame
it was your choice
to use that against me
in the end
for i have never once stopped
but you have never once shown
in actuality
that you truly love me
a thirty second phonecall
is not love
insults and nonsense
is not love
saying the words
is not love
only through actions and hands
can you ever really show me
but now that the evidence is real
and she ~ though not well-liked
is your bed partner
i say that it's clear
what her motive is
and she'll be sure to be
as cheerful and wacky and speedy
as you always need
yawn
i'm sure she's smart
and the family loves her
but if they only knew
the facades you both present
it's so absurd
i can hold my head up
and walk up the stairs
with the dignity to shove you
and then look back and smirk
because i am real
and everything i am
is authentic and loving
forgiving and cool
i'm the coolest fucking chick
you would ever have known
i am everything
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I write down good reasons to freeze to death in my spiral ring notebook. But in the long tresses of your hair--I am a babbling brook.
i could take that a number of ways.
how is missoula tonight?
actually I'm in Billings, MT for the summer
it sucks
glad your "stuff" is still excellent after my brief hiatus
I write down good reasons to freeze to death in my spiral ring notebook. But in the long tresses of your hair--I am a babbling brook.
uh
i'm uhhh
what is it I am
again?
oh yes
Timpressed?
that's the word
sometimes these things escape me
x
o
and then everything fell apart.
.
I wish you safe passage through your darkness, Felicity...
may love return to you someday, in more than thirty second bits, and with the hands you wish and the voice you long to hear.
cool or not.
oh yeah, i Love yer stuff, too
funny how that goes,isn't it?
first there are such positive expectations from previously conditioned thoughts,then-boom-your little world is shattered because nothing is as it seems.but you can deal with it,be flexible,open-minded,a free thinker.then you get slapped with a little reality,no,a LOT of reality and the floor leaves the soles of your feet.
i could kiss it better,but it's going to take a lot to buy these lips and convince them to ever trust again.
gimme gimme never gets.
haha.
oh,and thanks to all for the warm sensuous responses.rrrraawwrrr..
Your poem is fine how it is...you should post more of your "stuff."
btw-Can you roll your tongue when you do that "rrrraawwrrr"?
drool.
It's just what the doctor ordered.
c-