the second worst day of my life

sevensinssevensins Posts: 887
killeroftheradio: i had the worst day of my life today........well second
killeroftheradio: its hard to top #1
killeroftheradio: i woke up this morning and for no aparent reason, i wanted to die
killeroftheradio: i couldent write to dull the pain, i couldnt do anything
killeroftheradio: i wanted death to gratiosly greet me at my doorstep and i had no idea why
killeroftheradio: my feelings reach a boiling point at night and i needed help
killeroftheradio: i called every single person i knew and not one was home
killeroftheradio: i started to think it was a sighn
killeroftheradio: maby i was ment to die
killeroftheradio: i had a razor
killeroftheradio: and against my better judgement started cutting away
killeroftheradio: i found no relief in pain
killeroftheradio: after that i called the only person who might be home, cuz i had recieved a busy signal earlier
killeroftheradio: i called mitch
killeroftheradio: luckly he was there, and we talked for a wile, at about 12:30 am i snuck out
killeroftheradio: with guitar in hand down to the canal
killeroftheradio: following the train tracks to a small clearing near a street lamp
killeroftheradio: i played and sang for all of nature t hear
killeroftheradio: and was rewared with the applause of birds and crickets
killeroftheradio: i began after a few songs to emprovise this blues song
killeroftheradio: singing "i dont know were i am, i dont know what i'm doing, i dont know where i'm going, just far away from here"
killeroftheradio: it sounded pretty good to me
killeroftheradio: when i ran out of songs i said "cheers" to nature and went on walking down the track
killeroftheradio: i came to a ball field and stated walking around it
killeroftheradio: i walked out to the outfield, put down my guitar case
killeroftheradio: and fell to the groud on me back
killeroftheradio: staring up at the sky
killeroftheradio: started talking to god, asking "whe the hell am i sopose to do?"
killeroftheradio: when i stoped asking questions i looked around saying "i must admit it's really amazing out hear"
killeroftheradio: "the worlds so big and i'm just this insignificant speck, but yet in my own mind i'm the center of my universe"
killeroftheradio: as my thoughts trailed i noticed something shoot across the sky "a shooting star"
killeroftheradio: realiseing i must make a wish i wished for..........(cant say or it wont come true)
killeroftheradio: and i realised through this experience i have a reason to live, and still no reson to die
killeroftheradio: i walked home, snuck back in the house tore off my cloths, and wrote this letter to you
killeroftheradio: if you get this i hope your day went resonably better
killeroftheradio: i love you
killeroftheradio: mak david (rock star)
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Comments

  • sevensinssevensins Posts: 887
    for those who care, today the girl i wrote this to dumped me
  • ISNISN Posts: 1,700
    I care....that's shitty....you're going to Rhode Island though aren't you.....so start again......be positive.....it'll get better
    ....they're asking me to prove why I should be allowed to stay with my baby in Australia, because I'm mentally ill......and they think I should leave......
  • sevensinssevensins Posts: 887
    Originally posted by ISN
    I care....that's shitty....you're going to Rhode Island though aren't you.....so start again......be positive.....it'll get better

    rhode island? what the hell are you talking about?
  • ISNISN Posts: 1,700
    oopss...sorry I thought I read a post in another thread that said you were going to rhode island and leaving your family.....must have been someone else.....simple mistake.....

    anyway.....hope things work out
    ....they're asking me to prove why I should be allowed to stay with my baby in Australia, because I'm mentally ill......and they think I should leave......
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