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Cold hearted orb that rules the night
BhagavadGita
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tonight i write the saddest lines
god, how can you be so cruel
was i hitler in another life
was i manson
do i deserve to suffer
this
maddness
sometimes death
seems so much quieter
why god
do you take the deepest
secretest fondest wish
and twist it
and mash it and make it so ugly and bittersweet
like when the neighborhood kids teased me in
fifth grade when they chanted outside my front porch
all the secrects i had told my friend
who
had
turned
on
me
that debbie counts her tinkie hairs and there are only five
and you all my laugh
you fucks
but it's you
god
who are allowing some boy
to act like
he likes me
and he has his friends
in on the action.
if it werent' for my son
i would have joined Kurt a long time ago
i just dont have gun.
what did i do to deserve this pain
it was better not to be noticed
and just dream about him
the last fifteen mintues of my alarm.
i would forget about him by the time i went to work. maybe you can rewind the tape, BEFORE i heard his voice
before i climbed into this tree.
i want to jump.
move your net. it's not real anyway you coward.
god, how can you be so cruel
was i hitler in another life
was i manson
do i deserve to suffer
this
maddness
sometimes death
seems so much quieter
why god
do you take the deepest
secretest fondest wish
and twist it
and mash it and make it so ugly and bittersweet
like when the neighborhood kids teased me in
fifth grade when they chanted outside my front porch
all the secrects i had told my friend
who
had
turned
on
me
that debbie counts her tinkie hairs and there are only five
and you all my laugh
you fucks
but it's you
god
who are allowing some boy
to act like
he likes me
and he has his friends
in on the action.
if it werent' for my son
i would have joined Kurt a long time ago
i just dont have gun.
what did i do to deserve this pain
it was better not to be noticed
and just dream about him
the last fifteen mintues of my alarm.
i would forget about him by the time i went to work. maybe you can rewind the tape, BEFORE i heard his voice
before i climbed into this tree.
i want to jump.
move your net. it's not real anyway you coward.
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want to talk about it?
Best two days of my life: Oasis at MSG and Pearl Jam at the Gorge.
ya know i wrote one better a second ago but the frickin computer ate it
im dead
scream without raising your voice....
You know I took the poison from the poison stream,
then I floated outta here" - U2
"Love is a sensation, that is caused by temptation, where a guy sticks his location, in a ladies destination, to i
YOU are
ALL so very
cruel
look how you twist my words
and threaten to fuck me, even though i am fucked.
i lay down my sword
my body
my brain
the God within me says it's ok.
go ahead
have a good kick or two
why not have three?
i know it's god that isn't doing it to me
somewhere too the One i love ED is sleeping and scared and aching too.
we are not each other's enemy, he just needs to stop fighting too.
go ahead and get
that which does not hurt me only makes me stronger
but know this god, WE will find you without Jesus, we have found you by way of love. it is our heaven. we see jesus up there and we smile and share a bowl or two.
know this
in honor our love
even tho Jesus just arrived, returned from the other side telling us it is true.
this heretic say
PROVE IT. i want to believe but i must
touch.
is that asking too much. so Thomas walked over to Jesus and said yes, these are your wounds. I can feel them, no one is telling me, I know they are healed. I found Jesus through myself in believing in not fighting anymore
i surrender to all of you
although i may be quiet until my lord comes.
gita
and wander
and stare
at the man on the bridge
not quite silent
not quite still
on the ledge
cold cold water below
icy black
and the people
like me wonder
and as they wander
the thought is
is this really happening
or is it, just an art?
is this really happening or this just art.....we all know the answer to that..
a delightful YES
it is both.
isn't love amazing?
Lay Down, Lay Down
dont jump my dear
just lay down with
me
it is warm
we can hold each until
each stops shaking
when we are ready for
words just say
to me
nothing if you want
you eyes say everything
so come to me and
say
nothing.
let me hold the shakey little boy who just saw his mommy have sex for the first time and didn't like it.
let me make it ok.
My fingers are not broken and i have this really great think i do when my little boy can't relax, it's called angel scratches...
you softly and oh so slowly tickle the inside of your arm up and down. barely touching.
there are no striped green pillows here my dear,
only the down of my bosom.
i love you jeremy
i know the churches can help us cause i been there
if you dont like the spirit of the first person you call then call another one and if you dont have a phone let me tell you now that i love you in jesus name
amen
love,
J
I dont understand.
are you saying you love me?
WOW! im without the use of my words.
oh my fucking God!
I have never ever stopped loving you.