3 new children

xmascleanlove

i just gave birth to them last night...i posted one already...and i guess it shit the bed cause no one said anything about it...hopefully someone will give me some feedback on at least one of these

oh...and if they suck...tell me they suck...cause they're songs i'm probably going to sing in a couple weeks...and i'd rather look like a moron anonymously as apposed to in front of 60 people at open mic night...

anyways...my three new children


1. Ashes

disregard my broken heart
the violent violets on your neck
all the ways you've buried me
and become my regrets

when i should have walked away
pretended that this ended
and it wasn't all in vein

cos i've always been blind
with ashes in my eyes
i'll never be wise
with ashes in my eyes

and the kiss i couldn't get
perched upon your pristine lips
the one you pass around with bliss
the one i'll never get

was i ever good enough
to sell my soul for gold
then trade it for tradition
hoping that it makes me whole

this all burns the best
it hurts the best
the girl made of fire who i won't forget

i'll always be blind
with ashes in my eyes
i'll never be wise
with ashes in my eyes


2. spotlight

i'm afraid of all these eyes
of who they'll see and what they'll find
i'm ashamed and scared you'll laugh
at all the blood i just let drip

petrified i'll hurt their ears
terrified that they'll see my fear
and it'll all end in tears (thick blue tears)

i've been doing this addicted
and slowly losing touch
every words been scripted
but i don't miss em much

it's already been said...but i'm saying it again
i'm the worst at whatever i do best
all these sins that i've slipped in
all the lies i've been laying in
please believe and don't forget
at the very least i've lived
i've lived...i've lived...i've lived

i've been doing this addicted
and slowly losing touch
every words been scripted
but i don't miss em much


3. hearts and flags

i lack the simplicity
to sit back and simply be
don't have the integrity
to tell you how i disagree
with indifferent morality
to sit back and simply be

and i refuse to walk away
while my world disintegrates
watch me as i imitate
all the things i'll always hate

it's just me...losing sleep
then forgetting all my dreams
i'm such a liability
seems as if i'll always be
offering apologies - for
killing innocent beliefs

and i refuse to simply play
watch you while you walk away
cry while you disintegrate
into things i'll always hate

please...feel free...to keep your beliefs
keep them far away from me
...away from me
...away from me

~fin.

and lastly...just a little something i'm cooking

wipe the dust away from a blue eyed antique dream
swear i'll give up fairy tales to hold your wings and leave this hell

my hands in your hair is my happy ending and i pretend i'm still pretending just to breath

come kiss me til i'm cliche and break me til i bow
lay in my bed with that smooth skin
touch me and drive me wild

till your eyes are stars and spots
and i find the mind i lost
while we intertwine and i speak my mind
screaming that i love you lotts

i love you lotts
i love you lotts
i love you lotts

Being Enlightened

I enjoyed "Ashes" and that last one you were working on the best. And I've always loved your username, xmascleanlove. They definitely don't suck but, they're a little moody and sad. People can easily relate to those feelingas though so, I think you'll be just fine. I noticed a few spelling mistakes but, hey, you won't be writing it out--you'll be belting it out, so, it's all good! Good luck and let us know how it goes!